we can dance, we can dance, everybody's taking the chance
We can dance if we want to…
S…A…F…E…T…Y…. Safety dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I survived the first week of work. And in all reality it really was a week since I worked 7 days straight. It was supposed to be 10 straight but they rearranged the schedule because someone else apparently needed my days off so I got theirs and it worked out to where I had yesterday and today off. I have had zero motivation to really do anything either of my days off. I read and goofed off. That was pretty much it. I am still so damn tired trying to get used to really getting up and getting going every morning. The job isn’t hard, it is just busy all day and I run around that damn building several times a day. Good thing is, I lost 5 pounds some how last week. May not seem like a whole hell of a lot considering how fat my ass is, but if I can keep that up I might start being happier with myself in the future. There’s a pretty good cold front here today which means it will be pretty damn cold when I go to work in the morning. Something like 19 is what they were saying on the news last night. Needless to say, I am gonna be fucking cold doing counts in the morning. 3 incident reports last week. Stupid people doing stupid things because they think it is cute to give the new girl at work a hell of a time. I swear to all that is powerful that I actually don’t work for the department of corrections but I actually work for an adult moron whine bag day care center. Those fools whine and bitch and moan all fucking day long and have to be told every tiny little thing to do. You would think since they are supposed to be adults that they would have more common sense and know how to do things than my almost 2 year old niece, but they don’t. She has them beat all to hell in common sense and not having to be told what to do every step of the way. It is the same routine day after day there and you would think these fools wouldn’t have to be told to put their fucking ID on or tuck in their shirt or not wear a hat in the building. But no, you have to tell them all multiple times a day. *sigh* I had to watch visitation procedures this weekend. I really feel sorry for some of the families that come up there. They deserve so much better than having to come see some fuck up in their family at a prison because the fuck up did something stupid and landed himself in prison. Especially the kids, I really feel sorry for them because they are being punished for their dad or grandfather’s huge stupid fuck up. Other than that, work seems to be ok. I am working the holidays this month so that should mean some pretty good holiday pay. Something like $20 an hour for the holiday days. Not too shabby I think. Robert (the sibling demon from hell?) is pissy because his schedule is changing like the 20th and won’t have an excuse to need a babysitter anymore since there will be an adult there at all times for the kids. Sucks to be him but that is what happens when you get your wife pregnant and you end up having kids, you actually have to take responsibility for a fucking change. Half of my first paycheck is going to end up going to Mom for gas and helping out with bills and stuff. I am supposed to leave for academy the 4th if my uniforms are finally in before then. If not it will be a few more months before I go to academy. The upside of it coming this quickly is I won’t have to wait too long to find a place. All in all, things are ok I guess. It sucks being broke. That is one of the major issues right now, that and not having a car. But, hopefully that will all work out soon. The H.R. guy at work wants me to come over and have dinner with him sometime. I am not sure how to feel about that taking into consideration that it is someone from work and that complicates the hell out of life. I think I will just have to end up busy and turn him down. He is nice and everything, but yeah… I really need to just focus on work and stuff right now. Besides, I am not any good at dating. I just piss people off when I go on dates, which is why it is better to just stick to going on dates with gay men and females. Makes my life much simpler so as to not piss anyone off or hurt anyone or whatever because I am not ready to start looking at any more than just dating. I don’t want a serious relationship complicating my life right now. I am doing pretty damn good to just be getting on my feet. I don’t need anything coming in and breaking that all down for me and that is exactly what a relationship would do right now. So, unless I can just get away with going out on dates and it being left at that, I don’t want to play any of that game. Does that make me sound bad? I hope not. I missed out on the whole dating phase of life. I fucked up and ran right into a marriage and I would like to think that it isn’t too late to get the dating part of life back. Especially now that I am starting to feel better about myself and have a hell of a lot more confidence in the things that I do and the way that I live. Life isn’t just a huge fuck off pile of shit anymore. How’s that for positive? I thought you might like it. I am still lonely right now. New Year’s Eve plans got screwed because of the schedule change, so while everyone is out partying or what not, I will be sleeping because 7 hours into the New Year I will be at work earning a living. I guess I will hopefully get to make up those plans later, who knows, because I guess making plans too far in advance leads to let down. I am sorry that our plans got smashed and I am glad you understand. I hope you have a good time anyway, and think of me all curled up and sleeping or at work or whatever. In the mean time, I need to get a load of laundry washed since I have to have something to work in for tomorrow. Hope all is well with the rest of the world and I am sorry that I have been so shut off, but this last week was hell trying to get used to, maybe things will work out a little better and I won’t be so shut off this week. Remember that if your officer is doing a count, keep your pants on because that is big trouble, and don’t play games with your officer because she doesn’t like that shit and you will end up paying the consequences and they won’t be pretty. Take care and be good, stay safe and warm and remember that life really does start getting better.