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lawd have mercy please??? just a little bit??? i won't tell anyone if you grant just a little bit...
so the niecling is sick and has a cold and stuffy nose... i can't make her happy today to save my life. (and if anyone is wondering what the fuck i am doing online in the middle of the day on a not so normal day for me to be online, my sibling got his net installed today so get to play a little bit between screaming fits and naps)
so i was browsing around online a bit ago... hit myspace and went and kind of did something i shouldn't have done.... i looked at someone's pics... big mistake. it is funny how quickly people seem to get over me when we have been in a relationship. apparently that fucker is involved with someone deep enough that there is a new wedding band ... i am not sure why this bothers me... but it hit like i had been punched in the gut and the face and everywhere else at the same time for that matter. it just killed me. i mean... it isn't that i want the relationship back... we all know that was a big fucked up mistake... but... why is it so easy for that fucker to move on and leave me behind and break every promise known to man... while i sit here wondering where i went wrong in life and how to get out of this big dark black hole that seems to be swallowing a little more of me everyday.
am i that easy to forget?
why does this bother me?
why should i even care?
*sigh*
alright... i need to go fix lunch for both the niecling and myself... this should be fun... anyone for sghetti a la EVERYWHERE?
so the niecling is sick and has a cold and stuffy nose... i can't make her happy today to save my life. (and if anyone is wondering what the fuck i am doing online in the middle of the day on a not so normal day for me to be online, my sibling got his net installed today so get to play a little bit between screaming fits and naps)
so i was browsing around online a bit ago... hit myspace and went and kind of did something i shouldn't have done.... i looked at someone's pics... big mistake. it is funny how quickly people seem to get over me when we have been in a relationship. apparently that fucker is involved with someone deep enough that there is a new wedding band ... i am not sure why this bothers me... but it hit like i had been punched in the gut and the face and everywhere else at the same time for that matter. it just killed me. i mean... it isn't that i want the relationship back... we all know that was a big fucked up mistake... but... why is it so easy for that fucker to move on and leave me behind and break every promise known to man... while i sit here wondering where i went wrong in life and how to get out of this big dark black hole that seems to be swallowing a little more of me everyday.
am i that easy to forget?
why does this bother me?
why should i even care?
*sigh*
alright... i need to go fix lunch for both the niecling and myself... this should be fun... anyone for sghetti a la EVERYWHERE?