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surprise again, though this time i am not at the sibling's place. i am at dad's because the sibling decided to stay home with his sick little girl. infact, i may just get the next couple of days off from going over there meaning that i won't have to be stuck over there not knowing what the hell is going on until well after the time that game is supposed to start.
i have been doing a lot of thinking in the last few days, mostly the last 24 hours, but there has been thinking going on during those other days too. i know i went off the deep end yesterday with stuff, but it was a hell of a shock seeing that kind of stuff and knowing that i meant absolutely zero to nothing to someone that i gave so much of my life to. but you know what? there are much bigger things going on out there in the world and i think it is about time i said a few things about them before i accidentally run into someone and have to end up in prison.
i sat back for most of my marriage and fought with my husband to see his son. his son lives about an hour maybe an hour and a half away from his father and to the best of my knowledge, his father has not made a fucking attempt to see him in over 3 years! that's right, i didn't stutter, 3 YEARS! now, i know that doesn't mean a lot to a lot of people right now, but i am sitting and watching another situation or 12 and i think something should be said that i probably have no right to say but i am going to do it anyway.
DUCK GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS AND GROW THE FUCK UP! BE THE MAN AND FATHER YOU REALLY SHOULD BE INSTEAD OF THE PUSSY PANSY ASS MOTHERFUCKER YOU ARE BEING RIGHT NOW!
how long has it been since you have seen EITHER of your sons? what did they ever do to you to deserve to be treated this way? just because you may or may not have issues with their mothers doesn't mean that you have to take your fucked up issues out on them because they deserve SO MUCH BETTER! what do i know about this kind of stuff? oh i don't know, other than growing up in that kind of a home and dealing with this kind of stuff myself shows that maybe, just MAYBE i might know how they feel. so maybe they are young, but you know what? they are human beings and they have feelings too, even if they don't have the capability to show it like we as what are supposed to be adults do. i say supposed to be adults because some of us are and you are most certainly not being an adult about the whole matter.
there was a point in time that i thought maybe things that were said might have been a bit of a stretch. i thought maybe there is no way you could be that much of an asshole and that some people might just be a little stressed out and hurt by your actions, but after sitting back and knowing this shit is going on with not one but TWO of your children, i don't see it as anything but true and you need to grow the fuck up and stop with your lies and everything else. i don't for one minute believe you have an attorney, especially one that would suggest that you don't see your child. i think you are no more than a spoiled rotten child that doesn't want to grow the fuck up and be the man and father that you should be. if that is the case, why don't you just take the steps into stepping out of the boys' lives and just pay your financial obligations and stop toying with those boys hearts!
so what if you have issues with their mothers? you should look past that and at least make a real attempt to see those boys and spend time with them instead of pretending to when you KNOW DAMN GOOD AND WELL that everyone can see through your bullshit.
enough said... i am done with that... and you know what? i don't give a flying fuck if any of that upset anyone.
infact... maybe i should introduce your fucked up ass to my sister in law... you two would get along great.