Who am I kidding ( Read more... )

Oh, look what I have done.
I never meant to hurt you,
But look what you've become.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
I don't want it to be my fault.
Tell me after this long
That this can all be undone.
I hate saying this,
But it is the truth
I'm scared that what I've done to you,
I will do to him too.

Dear World ( Read more... )

I hate my life right now.
I feel so stupid.

Sometimes I think what holds me back from being what I think is successful is that I don't think I'll ever be worthy. "I want to be something I'm not" This whole idea just surrounds my head. I keep in negative thoughts that tell me " Look at you, you'll never be this person, you dreamed up in your head." My goals are never obtainable because I'm ( Read more... )

Yea, me and Tim are crazy, I dont know what to make of it.
I just really hope that this intuition that he is my soulmate is correct.
I mean, I think the fact that we are two total opposites, and the fact that we have lived together pretty much since we met  can be a plus but also a major minus. And we can get through it.........right?
We have to.
I ( Read more... )

So today was my nephews bday party. FUN FUN.. i took 8 rolls of pictures jeez! but they had a water slide! it made picture taking 10x cooler!
Yup...
Anyhoo, it was fun.
I'm trying to write in here more.
but.. I dont know what to say.

Ok. Today I went to work and got paid. Then, I came home and smoked A BUNCH of pot, watched My Super Ex-Girlfriend with Tim and my mom, it was hilarious. After that, I went to Caity's and hung out and smoked more pot on her porch and ate too much. Then, Caity, Richard, and Zaky and I went to Palais Royal to look for some clothes to give to my ( Read more... )

OK so its been forever.
Here's a little update on my life.
Well me and Caitin are friends again after 2 years. Shes got the most adorable baby boy. And is doing really great and i love her OH SO MUCH!
I am with Tim.. kinda sorta. Its been 2 1/2 years and we're hanging on. By a thread, but its there.. Weve been through hell, we were almost married.. ( Read more... )

Wow, its been a LONG LONG time, I went back and read some of my entries and WOW! I think I need a journal again.