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Raw
It opens the wounds every time I read about him. It leaves me raw. I don't know what draws me to keep reading about him. Maybe some day I will read that he is in jail. Him and his crew. They are the only ones left to be punished. Some of the others died a peaceful death they didn't deserve. Other's not so lucky.
To a certain extent, considering my ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Life Changes
Family and friends wonder why I am the way I am. Their thoughts run the gauntlet from sick (all in her head) to just plain lazy. Many times the same question--"What have you done with your life?"--many times the same answer--"I survived". It is a tired, redundant, mostly sarcastic answer. If one of them were to ever take the time to ask what that ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Saying good-bye is not easy.
How will I ever explain.
Everything looks like cardboard boxes,
Falling apart in the rain.
-Skylark
Where am I going? Backwards. It is time. Forward is impossible, at this point. I get close, then it all goes away. It is too hard to maintain when hope is handed to me, then taken away. Maybe that is what was meant for me from ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
You permeate me
deep inside.
Not an hour passes
without a thought.
Not a lover
but a one-way friend.
A two-way kinship
of shared knowledge.
You stealthily crept
inside of me.
Angel unaware
guardianship shared.
Breathlessness strikes
at unknown times.
You warm my soul
that once was cold.
There is no name
for this inundation
of yearning.
Emotional sync
unknown to you.
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I AM BORED. -
United States of Tara
The United States of Tara-Showtime-produced by Stephen Spielberg
A one-half hour series about a woman with multiple personalities. To put it lightly, I can identify with Tara. Oddly, my idiom is, E pluribus unum, Latin for "Out of Many, One," seen by one if close attention is paid to all the money forked over to live the American dream. I don't ( Read more... ) -
ON THIS MY SPECIAL DAY
ON THIS MY SPECIAL DAY
ON THIS MY SPECIAL DAY,
I WONDER IF I'LL EVER FIND MY WAY.
LOOKING THROUGH THE BODY'S EYES,
BORROWING THE OTHERS' MINDS.
EVEN THE SPIRIT ISN'T MINE.
ON THIS MY SPECIAL DAY,
I SIT ALONE WITH THESE WORDS TO SAY.
THE MANY WILL NEVER BE ONE,
THE ONE I LOVE WILL NEVER BE WON.
HOW LONG BEFORE I'M DONE?
ON THIS MY SPECIAL DAY,
MY GRASP FOR ( Read more... ) -
Going Back
I have thought about it, Wrestled with it. Tried to find other ways. Nothing is working out. Doctors won't release me to go back to work. I have one skill. I don't need good kidney's to fuck. I have no special other in my life. Condoms are popular. I need money. Not "play around" money, but "need to keep my kid" money. I have been homeless before, ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I am really lonely tonight. Usually doesn't bother me. Tonight it does.
