Sometimes I have to say it aloud, just to make it real. I won't believe it otherwise.

My brother is dead.

Sometimes I just think of it like; "Oh, TA has fucked up again, only this time it kinda hurts me." And then I realize, this is the last time he can hurt us or himself. I don't think about where he is now, because I not at the point of even fully ( Read more... )

So ... Jascia loves her lists.

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  Lately, I have noticed that while I still smoke, I really am starting to simply abhor it. It burns my throat, it tastes bad, etc. I smoked a whole pack in a week. Which brings me to a cross roads.
  
  a) This means the novelty has worn off, and my want will dwindle away with a little self control and I will quit ( Read more... )

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1. 
   Shower Caddy. I have a toiletry bag, but it takes forever to root around in there to get stuff.
2. 
   Razors  for my ... razor? And gel.
3. 
   Shampoo und conditioner.
4. 
   New toothbrush. My old one is electric, and I can't find replacement heads.
5. 
   A rather big one - I must get my laptop soon. Or else the other kids with think I'm a "dork", to use the college lingo.

When I dream, I dream of your kiss.

When I dream, I dream of your fists, your fists, your fists.

Wow. That was an inappropriately dreary beginning to this blog. Its just such a gorgeous song.

Today Lynny and I went shopping for dorm/college stuff. I love lists.

1. Dry erase board for my door
                2. Desk organizer set and ( Read more... )

Lately I read somewhere "If you are at peace with yourself, anywhere is home."

Sadly, I find that to be true in my case. I don't think I will ever be truly be happy living with any of my family, at least. I can't live with SAL, because she is so sadly cruel and sick. Living with any of my siblings would drain the life out of me, and cause me to ( Read more... )

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Today was a good day. Lynny and I went to this incense/jewelry/Wicca shop. It was fabulous. I finally have a ring for my right index finger! I took a picture of it, but it was just too damn shiny for Steeve, the camera.

But since I have Steeve already hooked up, and I love my makeup in this picture ...


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So, there's this girl that comes into Starbucks like EVERY FREAKING DAY. And I want to marry her. *sigh*

Like three days ago, I was tenning in my vehicle, when I saw her going through the drive thru. (I was on drive that day.) Damn. When I got back, I asked the guy on DT;

"The girl in the Eclipse already gone?"

He said "Yeah, why?"

I said "Nothing ( Read more... )