Im good... maybe a little too good, i have begun MIA bashing and i do not want to stop, he deserves nothing more or less than what he will recieve...i have been talking to him but it is too pointless... but yeah... im ok now... seriously... yay!! im not gonna die!! not yet anyway... but if the hereditaey plague that goes round my family gets me ( Read more... )

YES... so what the hell is going on with this supposed "new and improved" jaded... i'm falling apart... i seem to be entering a foggy blur, i haven't felt like this is two years... everything seems to be going by so fast and i feel like im the only one who cares and is trying to stop it... doing this is taking away so much energy... these past two ( Read more... )

NO..... I'm only seventeen, but still, at random odd moments i have been starting to feel really hot around my head and scalp for like a few minutes... then i shiver... and stabelize...well... i was sick on wednesday... could it be that my fever is... trying to come back.... *hmph* me hates being sick especially when it has finally SNOWED in like ( Read more... )

OMG! jaded is crazy.... *cuckoo, cuckoo* i guess its a way to get over my 5 and a half year obsession with Taylor Hanson, but i have begun an all new (new low) obsession with one of high celebrity status... 13 year old Daniel Radcliffe... i know its worng... but i can't help it *sob* really i can't *double sob* even though I really want to. and it ( Read more... )

Yes, yes i do, after a break from everything (mental break ... at lest) I have returned with far less woes than when i first started this thingy. yesh.. after five years of agony i have finally been victorious in my emotional fight against emotion for the unrequited love of my life that was MIA. i have emerged a far more better person but with ( Read more... )

yes... this seems to be a common theme... the time that everyone thinks that i must be the most depressed... im pretty good... like at the moment... MIA seems to be stalking his prey... suxually speaking... and is talking to me openly about it... WTF?... he really has no fucking clue... everyone knows that... but.... ahhhh... and the thing is i am ( Read more... )

ok... well you can disregard that other post... it seems as though the walls are beginning to crash now... on all sides...WTF?!?!? i knew it was too good to last... call it woman's intuition or whatever... it sux... i know its stupid too... something waaaaaay beyond my control... not even in the same ballpark... but hey... it still hurts as if it ( Read more... )

I don't know yet... because i don't remember ever being this mentally stable... for a while now... i hope thats a good thing... everything seems to be figured out... at least the things i have control over... and not much else seems to matter... at least at the moment... so maybe i should just let this happen... and stop thinking about it... that ( Read more... )

ok... do i like to torture myself emotionaly or what... *hint= its not "what"*.... ok me and mia can never be...right?... yeah... it finally sank in... after saying it over and over again didn't work... knowing he had feelings for an actual attainable person did it... and it did it well... i feel so free... and yet so reluctant to let go... the ( Read more... )

What the hell is going on?!??! it seems as though i really don't care what i say anymore about anything... i'm such a huge liar... and the thing is ... i hate liars... im a horrible person.... ew... no im not i hate it when ppl say that and don't mean it... i m not horrible... may be im just going through a phase... hopefully a damn quick one.. ( Read more... )