i'm interested in a boy-man (hides face in shame)
OMG! jaded is crazy.... *cuckoo, cuckoo* i guess its a way to get over my 5 and a half year obsession with Taylor Hanson, but i have begun an all new (new low) obsession with one of high celebrity status... 13 year old Daniel Radcliffe... i know its worng... but i can't help it *sob* really i can't *double sob* even though I really want to. and it fills the void, i can tell you that, i really like having unreal relationships because, they don't take a lot to maintain, just your interest in the person , and their is no rejection, something i thankfully hae never experienced, but i believe that is only the case because i've never allowed anyone the oppurtunity, at my ripe old age of seventeen i have only really been in three relationships, all of which were started out by the guys and i really had no interest in them whatsoever and i lacked the attention span to learn to like them. i really consider my self lucky to have had any kind of experince whatsoever since most guys (that i am interested in) only see me as a great friend 'one of the guys' and tell me about their sexual conquests, god soemtimes it gets so complex its ridicolous... at the moment though i seem to be cleansed of that which has caused me more pain than any celbrity...MIA. and i am thankful for that, but the celbrity ones keep coming even though i try to fight it, i don't think i would even think twice about a new celebrity "hearthrob" if it wasn't for the humongous age diffrence that many of my peers *psy* have kindly pointed out, i am very aware of it also becuase of the fact that its happening really fast as compared to those that have come before him and its kinda gross... and yet... ooh i get squshy feeling when i hear him talk and when.... AURGHHH!! WTF is wrong with me, i need an actual relationship, its been a while since my last one. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. but i like DAN!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh but i don't want toooooooooooooooooo!!