I knew the moment I posted anything about myself and my prof having a conversation over coffee, SOMEONE was going to make some tasteless joke about it being a jailbait situation. I realize the person was joking, but  I hate that nowadays that's something that people can easily contemplate, cause it ACTUALLY HAPPENS. *shudder* I'd never even think ( Read more... )

Why is it that every boy I meet or know that could even be considered to be anything close to a boyfriend just ends up annoying the living hell out of me?

Alex is mood-swingy, with all these issues that he refuses to let me help him with. Oh, but he is perfectly content tell me about each and every one and then act like he doesn't even remember them ( Read more... )

....I just sodding adore life sometimes.

Vermouth is delicious.
Coffee is delicious.

Hugs are incredible.

Goodnight.

~Isilwen

I'm thinking about him again. For some reason I alway do near the end of summer time. Pathetic, much?
He still pops into my head now and then. Well, not him persay...just the him that I invented so long ago.
And distant memories before it all went to hell.

"Women will lie to themselves to get what they want."

I've realized that I have hidden everything ( Read more... )

I have enough trouble reconciling my feelings towards him with the fact that no future is possible, without wondering if I'm going to lose him, suddenly. It was weird to look at him tonight and think that a few days before he was in the hospital...Perhaps I overreact, but forgive me...that's what happens when I love someone. 
Yeah I still love him. ( Read more... )

Something startling has happened...I've discovered the "real" me. At least, underneath most of the defenses.

And I think I like her.

I think I'm starting to really understand her.

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I want to see him.
I want to look in this eyes.
Or maybe I just want to know for certain...
That what I sometimes feel is just a flight of fancy.

It seems love is in the air ( Read more... )

I told him how much of a failure I am.
He showed me ISLANDS where we could place OUR castle.
I mentioned that I wanted to travel someday.
Said he'd redesign it a bit so we could see the world.
Then I started to cry.
So, he sent me a song.

"Could you be the most beautiful girl in the world? / Plain to see, you're the reason that God made a girl..."

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I'm beginning to think that the problem I've been most ignoring about my relationship with her is this place and how much just our living space has affected how we relate to each other. For instance, last year we kept to our rooms a lot, sure, but we'd eventually come to the kitchen to make food and we'd inevitably sit and chat while we ate. I ( Read more... )

It's funny to think that compliments from him used to consist of awkward things like, "Yeah, you know, you're kinda cool."

Head down. Foot shuffling.

Now he sits across from me and will suddenly just shake his head and say, "I love you. You are very beautiful."

Head up. Looking me in the eye.

I feel I've kinda earned it.

"Life, huh? And what do you think 'life' is about ( Read more... )