I switched jobs - and now I don't have the right to tell this person I miss him, because I could have gone back.
It hurts. Because I really do. Not sure if that will ever change ( Read more... )

Sorry for being so silent...anyone who happens to read this. I'm trying to keep this lj up lest I become just another lurker. I've had quite an intense and expensive few weeks of dental surgery, pain, and the flu. Let's not forget how many bruises I managed to get on the EXACT SAME KNEE. How do I even do that ( Read more... )

I am having serious fan gurl feelings here, for this new Arashi song.
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This morning I lifted and moved five televisions, all of which were bigger than my torso, in about five minutes. I did this using my legs (I'm not crazy), but very quickly because customers needed access to the bin and the tvs were blocking the door. The two men I was moving them for helped me with one, but then just stood there, shaking their ( Read more... )

• When making your bastardized version of Nabe, always use nappa cabbage. Otherwise it will taste funky and not cook right. Also, remember that it's incredibly hard to cut and slicing your own thumb really hurt (and bled too much).
• You need to stop isolating yourself because there are some people who really do love you. You forget this because you're ( Read more... )

Seriously need to post again.
This won't be XANGA, but it will be a place I write in again. You know...
Post soon!
~Isilie

I know I don't have any relatives or friends there. In fact, I know NO ONE there unless you count idols.
Still...
I was there. Only six months ago, I was walking on that land. I love Japan. This disaster feels closer to home than it seems.

I keep reading and watching and crying.
I'll keep doing my best in my own life and praying for their safety.
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My fatal flaw has always been that I take myself too seriously. I don't know why I'm like that. I joke almost nonstop and my brother makes damn sure that I don't get too emo about my circumstances. He doesn't tolerate any sort of whiny, "why should I even try" sort of talk. I smile almost constantly, people always seem to laugh at my humour and I'd ( Read more... )

Am I breaking her heart?
That is one thing I didn't want to do, even though she's broken mine so many times.
Maybe I really am as uncaring as all that. Maybe I'm just horrible.
I just...give.
Swore I wouldn't, but there you go.

*sigh*

I promise...no more cryptic stuff after this.
Really.
I'll do my best.

~Isilwen