Outside the pool is lit in blue glow surrounded by darkness, with rain pattering it surface- the only sign of the storm outside besides the patterings on the roof of this rental house in East Hampton. I find myself out here again, meeting my habitual requirements, trying to borrow int past moments of comfort from my present- and in third place, an ( Read more... )

As I walked back to my apartment tonight I found myself caught in a moment. I could see my breathe and as I looked up I was reminded of when I lived in SOMA. There was a public school to my right, a bridge exit that was two stories high, and beyond it tall buildings encased in fog. It reminded me from 2009, living in SF, my walk from the whole ( Read more... )

I came back from my apartment in Chinatown, to my parents house this Friday night to watch Lost in Translation. There is always this moment in the winter where it hits me that "its time" to watch this movie again. Every year, it always hits me in a different way. Sometimes it leaves me bored, excited, happy, zen, contemplative or a mixture of all ( Read more... )

I went to the Lunar New Year parade in Chinatown again this year, yet because I live down here I could get to the start of the parade, instead of just its aftermath. I invited Tracy and was nice to hang out with her again. Partly because I honestly haven't been hanging out with almost anyone lately. So much of what my life was here, isn't here in ( Read more... )

So here I sit, late at night in another country house in Long Island, just short of East Hampton, just short of where my Uncle sleeps on his final weekend of the Summer. Its been 4 years since I last had a Labor Day off and this one is well deserved. This whole Summer was a plan. It started while reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, the ( Read more... )

Summer is a funny thing of contrasts. I sit currently in the same beach town of Newport that I have resided in for almost a week now. Looking off my balcony onto a Summers night I see a semi darkened alleyway, slopped at the edges to drain after heavy rains. At the far end you can feel the warm ocean air with only parts of the street illuminated by ( Read more... )

I have had my birthday in many places in my life. Often in New York with a feeling of longing attached to be somewhere else. I hide that urge to do or be somewhere special by running around the city and seeing friends. Which is awesome, but it was cool this was a year I could actually go do something. So I am currently in the middle of a two week ( Read more... )

I have been really stressed out lately. More than any time in my life I have created the most changes in a very short period of time. In the last two months I have changed jobs, got an apartment in Chinatown and am in the processes of coming out as bi to my family. Well really the whole goal of this first half of my Summer is coming out to my ( Read more... )

This week I have spent unusually. I have spent the week somewhere different, and independently. Creating my own cocoon of late night tea drinking and jazz listening while watching the glittery landscape beyond. I have been cat sitting at my friend Sara's place while her and her Mom are away in Floria on vacation, living away from my parents. Its ( Read more... )

If I could live my life differently, I wouldn't want to live it all again. I think life is about pitstops and detours towards our goals. The challenges between us and the horizon we envision are what end up defining what we want and make those achievements all the more satisfying. But I do find myself my mind wander in moments- where I imagine ( Read more... )