on another note...

November marks my 3 year mark of being in remission.

Badass. :)

So, it's been a long time since I posted in this thing. I am very tempted to just start up a new journal and have all the old crap deleted. I'm afraid to go back and look at it for fear that I'll think I used to be a total dumbass. haha ( Read more... )

I'm not full of myself, but in the past few years I've come to believe that I can truly do ANYTHING I put my mind to, and that's an awesome feeling.

It's about time that I finally weed out the people that are bringing me down. I am so much better than this.

I am SO ready for a fresh start. The thought of getting out of here and starting a new life somewhere else for graduate school is sounding more and more appealing by the day. Thinking about leaving my parents and brother behind makes me want to cry, but lately I've felt that besides them, I have no ties here. I'd give anything to find a few good ( Read more... )

Life is all about passing tests in some form or another. Some things come easy to us; others don't. You might stay up for days preparing for one but then forget everything you ever knew when actually in the situation. That's what love is like. We have the capacity to love. We've heard all the rules for this and that, but when that person is ( Read more... )

my uncle has cancer. fabulous.

I swear on everything that I will never quit fighting to get rid of this fucking disease.
As every day passes, I realize more and more that this is my calling.

ok, so hanging out with the guys is not as cool as I used to think. It's fun at first but then when I start going out with a big group of them, I begin to see the inner workings of the male brain, and it really isn't pretty. Plotting to bring home a fat chick at the end of the night just for the point of it? WTF...who does that? Oh yeah...a guy

Anyone want to help a great cause but don't have the time? You can easily make a donation to my Relay For Life team that will go straight to the American Cancer Society. Seriously, if anyone does this, I'll love you forever. We're working really hard to get this Relay together, so I am trying to raise as much money as possible so my CAC team can ( Read more... )

I love my people at the hospital. I go in there and they all go nuts....and are just the nicest, most caring people ever. I saw one of my chemo nurses (I had 4) and she was like "wow...you are doing amazing. I love seeing stories like yours." And then, I realized that these people have seen me at my worst. They saw me at my lowest points, and ( Read more... )

it kind of amazes me that life can be in fast-forward and slow motion all at the same time.