im not sure why i am compelled to journal right now. but i am. a lot. the past two nights have revealed a lot to me about why im in such a weird situation as far as this whole who am i bullshit goes. i know who i am when i am away from this place. however i miss who im not when im in vermont. i really want some sort of happy medium but that is so ( Read more... )

im coming down on the 21st but i wont be there til late that night. because instead of taking a 48372045789 dollar flight im hitchhiking a ride from the bofo and then meeting up with the pops. its a 6 hour drive to tyler's sister's house in north jersey and then 2 hours from there to get to the hometown. were leaving at like 430 or 500 so that ( Read more... )

i had a wonderful time being home. wonderful indeed. i think that today will be one of those days that ill remember my entire life. i almost died a lot. or well was seriously injured a lot. on my way home from philly this morning i was crossing a street and this guy in a pickup truck turned in my direction and just kept going, he was looking right ( Read more... )

( i cried today. )

man living is a crazy thing.

how come compliments make me uncomfortable, is that normal?? i love being called "prettyface" but why is it such an akward thing man o man o man boys


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hayy lj! i missss you. um i just redad fhl34756237854603872 posts and its late and i have to wake up in 6 hours. crap. goodnight i miss everyone alot

its june. schools almost ovah. friday night i spilled grape soda on my med info for vycc. crap. theyre gonna hate me now i was so sad. the envelope was friggen purple.

im in a stupid mood. proms gay. not going. i wanna get drizzle. but if i do ill be sad. bad news. gahhhhh im going camping tomorro with the pops. that should be nice and time consuming. cool. 40 ish days til peace time

i got the sweetest job in the worlld for this summer. it took about 24 hours for my application to be accepted and i am about to pee all over myself. yay to the max ( Read more... )

as i get closer to moving i keep realizing more and more that all of my chances of survival in south jersey are withering away, with friends and keeping up with my family. im such a lamo ( Read more... )