It's done...finally. But I don't know whether to be relieved or crushed. I lost my best friend. The person that made me get up in the morning when all I wanted was to hide from the world. After 6 months of fighting and tension, we're done. I guess we just got sick of fighting...I know I didn't want to anymore. But it's just so unbelievably sad. ( Read more... )

 I don't know what I believe in anymore. Certainly not myself...but I'm not sure what I do believe in...there has to be something right? I just feel so lost and confused in my own life...and I don't know how to get back ( Read more... )

Why do I always come in last? All I want, all I've ever wanted, was to be first in someone's life. I just want someone to need me too. I just want to not be alone anymore.

I am depressed. I am so sad and lonely that I don't even know what to do anymore. I am so scared, I can't sleep, I constantly feel anxious. I don't know how to be happy anymore.

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Oh wow...tonight was pretty great. After my exam, that is. Before that, not so much ( Read more... )

So, here's a rough question...what do you do when you see your best friend...someone who's been there for you, no questions asked, supported you when you did stupid shit, occasionally joined in on the stupid shit, the person that knows basically everything about you, that doesn't judge, that is always there to pick up the pieces, the person you can ( Read more... )

Ohhhhh boy. Funny story...so yesterday morning the roommate and I were both awake around 9ish. I was getting dressed in my closet and she was heating up pop tarts for breakfast. All the sudden, I smelled smoke...and then she goes "Tracy Tracy! What's going on?!" So, I hopped out of my closet, dressed, of course, and went to see what was going on... ( Read more... )

Aw, classes. Actually they haven't been too bad yet. I've had them all except my econ discussion. And that prolly won't be too bad. I really like my econ professor. She seems quite nice. And she let us out early...as in we were there for 10 min and that's it. I liked it a lot ( Read more... )

Aw, a good day...I've had pretty good days ever since I've been here...we shall have a recap ( Read more... )

Ah...home. They say you can't go home again. A total load of crap. You CAN go home again and you should. When I left Chambana in May...I was totally depressed...I didn't want to leave...didn't want to leave the campus, the random crap that happens on campus, my new friends...Jen, Jon, Di, Kyle...many others...but the gist is...I did NOT want to go ( Read more... )

I must say I am a first class idiot. I SWORE this wouldn't happen! Dang it. I hates meself. Well, not really. But I do hate what I'm feeling right now. Freakin' A ( Read more... )