Fear

[ilanthefirst]

I've got far too many half-written posts to be starting another, but I guess this is kinda important.  I pulled an all-nighter on Wednesday-to-Thursday and forgot to apply my T the next day.  That was actually the first time I forgot to do it at all.  "No biggie," I told myself.  I got home late and decided to apply it at midnight and let that be

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[mechers]

I know that fear very intimately. I'm sorry you're dealing with it.

[ilanthefirst]

How did you get over it? I know you talk about its logical consequences pretty regularly. Has it gotten any easier?

[mechers]

Since this is a public post, I made an entry in my journal. It's filtered for only you (let me know if you'd like it opened to my general trans filter):

http://mechers.livejournal.com/1486111.html

[ilanthefirst]

Thanks! I'll reply there and am cool with you opening it to the filter.

To my assesement -you've got a set of balances at work in your self- image calculations,

[capybyra]

Anxiety about work or tasks is a stand alone from gender in the most unstressed of humans. Gender carries it's own cultural imperatives and you are doing an internal re-sort of them so it's unsurprising that conflicts simply-are. And acceptance of working it out as you go along can be a key to unlock your life

[freakygems]

I don't know if you are feeling a kind of stuck-ness or anxiety about the unwanted upper lip hair. I wonder if you are speaking out loud a lot of fears people have but are to afraid to mention. Through your post/evidence I noticed that even though you are feeling stuck/anxious/scared that you ended with wanting to figure out how to shave that hair.

I might not be able to provide answers but I definitely empathise with this struggle. I dealt with my through hair removal cream :P