Fear

[ilanthefirst]

I've got far too many half-written posts to be starting another, but I guess this is kinda important.  I pulled an all-nighter on Wednesday-to-Thursday and forgot to apply my T the next day.  That was actually the first time I forgot to do it at all.  "No biggie," I told myself.  I got home late and decided to apply it at midnight and let that be

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To my assesement -you've got a set of balances at work in your self- image calculations,

[capybyra]

Anxiety about work or tasks is a stand alone from gender in the most unstressed of humans. Gender carries it's own cultural imperatives and you are doing an internal re-sort of them so it's unsurprising that conflicts simply-are. And acceptance of working it out as you go along can be a key to unlock your life.

Always ask yourself HOW to find the path of safe comforts. Comforts banish fears... that has several layers in the cases of T and your upper lip:)

Are you conflicted about the mechanics- the emotions- or all the elements? Processing the "why" of them is part of your becoming as you need to be. It's all about being comfortable as you need to be.

Shaving that upper lip is like any learned action. Simply apply calm determination to master it. Be unashamed to search for tutorials and videos. Either femme or boy-shaving can be a comfort ritual too.

Your skin and hair is going to be amusingly just as you said- in a sort of tween state so skin tenderness will make shaving needfully more delicate. Details count, things like a heated lather machine and using hot washcloths before lathering up- using fresh blades as often as needful plus being aware of shaving WITH the hair growth= DOWN not up- your face to avoid nicks.

Keeping the painful needful of a styptic "no-nik' pencil to stop the often exasperatingly unavoidable tiny cuts we get. It's all learning curve. You mastered the femme things- now you master the male ones same as any boy grows into man things.

Picking a masculine aftershave is also part of developing "Self" as such. Either exotica from foreign countries or the comforting herd scents of cheap Brut, Aqua Velva and so on. It's all good if you make it so.

Hopefully I helped.