Ive come to relize some people are just bad people and incredibly fake. They dodnt care about anyone but themselves and try to make it appear that they are sweet and compassionate and faithful, but alas their true color show though eventually especially when you really need them. There is nothingnI cant do about bitches like that and I just have to ( Read more... )

Once again I have it painfullybshown to me why I cant be friends with girls, and why I cant trust them as friends. I was friends with a girl since I was 15 I thought we were super tight, I asked her to be my maid of honor in my wedding and then out of nowhere she stops talking to me and dissapears It sucks and makes me want to cry. I dont knownwhy ( Read more... )

Maybe its because Im under so much stress, or maybe its because Im no longer on artificial hormores but whatever the case I feel like beating someone or something not killing it just taking my frustration out on it.

I have a spread sheet assignment due on Thursday @ 10 for my stats class, and the whole assignment ahs just been one giant pain in my ( Read more... )

Last week was strange and hectic to say the least. Both socially, and professionally. I got a lot of things done as far as the wedding goes setting up appointments and registering for our marriage preperation classes. I talked to my school and found im on track for graduation and that I  ahve some options and thats alwasy nice. Im reading along in ( Read more... )

Ive realized that I need to start thinking about out wedding invitations, I saw some that I really likes that were on and off-white colored paper and has these very thin green creeping vines on them. Since we are incoporating little elements of nature in to the wedding (the center pieces and the favors) I thought this would be a nice way of ( Read more... )

Im booking my reception site on the 1st Im nervous to be booking it before I have all the church stuff squared away, but I suppose if need be I do have a plan B backup plan that I can pull out of the hat so thats all I can really do is hope that the church doesnt barr me from reserving the date until all my requirements are fulfilled, Im still ( Read more... )

Its 1:30 in the afternoon and all ive done all day is look online for jobs and just feel generally out of place. I feel detached from all my friends right now and just confused about the general state of those relationships. Im stressed about the wedding I have no help and I feel like I just cant do it all on my own with school.  Ive looked at jobs ( Read more... )

I miss the days of not having to worry about anything and being fairly stable in terms of knowing what was going on in my life and how things were going to turn out. I miss not worrying and when I did it was over stupid meaningless crap for the most part. I think about the things I used to worry about and have to laugh boys and bands and later ( Read more... )

Im stressed about the wedding, didn't get to go dress shopping, Im having trouble with all the paper work concerning classes and the right to marry form. I have to go between three different churches and I should be booking tomorrow, but have way too many question still to be answerd Im affraid someone is going to snatch up my dates and then I'll ( Read more... )

I have so much to do and cant just seem to get down on it. its all

wedding, wedding, wedding...

school, school, school...

job, job, job...

hireing freeze, hireing freeze, hireing freeze!

Im so tired of all of it. I have a history of ulcers and I can certainly feel one comming on and am not looking forward to that. I have to call the doctor and start ( Read more... )