wow....so everything is pretty much over.

summer is gone.

school is here.

i dont want to go back.

im scared.

life has been crazy the past few months and ive really grown up this past summer.

i kinda had to.

ive had to learn alot about myself and about life.

i want to make this year a good one.

no screw ups like last year.

Way back then when things were perfect ( Read more... )

ok, so today i went out for the first time in like forever. kayla, cami, alex, ariana, ana, and i rented a movie. went to kayla's house and watched it. then i went home. had a great heart-to-heart with komal and everything is suddenly clear and perfect ( Read more... )

so i hvent been online in like a week or so, maybe longer. maybe not. but its funny bcuz i just realized how much the internet was my life at one point. and how much it kept me in check with reality. and when i dont go online i totally get shut off from like all human contact. its like my life just stops. its crazy wierd but whatever, that was ( Read more... )

You know what the best part of my day is? The ten seconds before I knock on your door, 'cause I let myself think I might get there, and you'd be gone. I'd knock on the door and you wouldn't be there. You just left. No 'goodbye', no 'see ya later'. You just left. Now I don't know much, but I do know that.

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you ( Read more... )

thanks so much lina ( Read more... )

ive never wanted to accept this...ive never wanted to realize that im not wanted by all who i care about ( Read more... )

ok, so ive been away in arizona for the past week and i come home and find out that my friend is pissed at me buz i didnt tell her something. prolly even more pissed bcuz my other friends told her that they knew that "something" the whole time. hmmm...who should i be mad at? friend #1 for not listening to my side of the story? or the group of ( Read more... )

wow, im so dissapointed in myself for the way ive been acting. before last wednesday i thought that i was the only person that had total and major issues in my life. but that realization came crashing down and smacked me across the face when ana called me crying. i didnt know what to say to her. here is the girl who is my rock and my strength in my ( Read more... )