I don't know what to do. I am lost.

i'm lounging around on my bed on cush's laptop which he left with me for the day, sort of as a bribe to clean up my room. XD it's looking a little better, i can actually see the floor so that's a start. so it's about time for another random update on my life ( Read more... )

so i'm currently sitting in cush's room with him and james watching them play call of duty. i'm full beyond belief, mostly because i just ate another slice of pumpkin pie with the most delicious homemade whipped cream. i went through two dinners today, one at cush's around 5ish, then another at my house around 7. the food was all so good but now my ( Read more... )

this meaning keeping up with posting. XD i'm still alive, still avoiding capitalization, and still lacking a working computer of my own (which is one of the main reasons why i'm still so lazy with posting.)

let's see, i'll go through the noteworthy things that have happened to me since i've last posted. not that i think anyone will really read this ( Read more... )

Eleven eleven and I'm thinking of you even though you're thinking of her. I guess this just about sums up our entire relationship. You wish you had never met her, and in some ways I wish I had never met you. You used me, at least have the balls to admit it. This hurts less the second time around, but still fucking hurts. You still want to be ( Read more... )

Much much fun. I stayed home on Thursday, but had to go to school Friday so I would be allowed to go to Angela's birthday party that day. I went to the boardwalk after school with Paige Mary and Bri, they all got hired and I told Hank I was coming back to work there again. I was supposed to go to Babies-R-Us with Mary to get a present for Jess, but ( Read more... )

a few weeks later and i'm more than alright. it was hell there for a while, but things are back to normal. this normal is different from before, but similar to these past few months. things are alright with us, we're tentative and unsure but we hide it well. i pretend that i have no doubts, no questions, no feelings of betrayal still lingering ( Read more... )

today was the shittiest day i've had in a long while. i don't even want to think about it, but i can't get it out of my head. i was just a replacement for another. he tells me that he doesn't want me to think that everything that happened between us was fake, then ten minutes later he's back with her. a little fucked up, that he didn't even have ( Read more... )

So I'm a little late, as it was written a few months ago, but still. This is only one of the reasons he's my absolute favorite ( Read more... )

oh, how I love these boys.

♥