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a few weeks later and i'm more than alright. it was hell there for a while, but things are back to normal. this normal is different from before, but similar to these past few months. things are alright with us, we're tentative and unsure but we hide it well. i pretend that i have no doubts, no questions, no feelings of betrayal still lingering around. i wish i could know what you're thinking, how you feel. you're so hard to read and it bothers me that i don't know how to fix things or if they even need it. there are moments between us where i'm unsure what to do because it feels like old times and then i remember that it's different. then i think, what's so different about it? so you left me for a few days to sort yourself out and figure out that you aren't still in love with your ex-girlfriend. still pretty shitty that you ditched me so fast to do it, but how do i know what was going through your head? you answered my questions, apologized, and gave me my time to think it over. what more do i want? for it to have never happened maybe, but it's done now. i think the best i can do is leave it alone and not let it ruin what's left. what i can't figure out is if it's a good thing to let this go, or if it's a mistake that i'm going to regret later.