i'll probably delete this later.
today was the shittiest day i've had in a long while. i don't even want to think about it, but i can't get it out of my head. i was just a replacement for another. he tells me that he doesn't want me to think that everything that happened between us was fake, then ten minutes later he's back with her. a little fucked up, that he didn't even have the decency to be honest about it. i don't know what to say or do when i see him tomorrow. avoiding him seems like a good plan, but that's not going to work forever. i just don't think i can face it yet.