To my surprise, my birthday week was far from what I wanted it to be. My plans fell through, and I ended up doing things I didn't really want to. It was actually a really hard day, my birthday. The days to follow were odd. The last couple of days have been odd. A lot caught up, faster and harder than I'd ever expect. Waterworks, wednesday, thursday ( Read more... )

July is always my favorite month. Time seems to stands still... When I think back, July always means so much to me. August does too, but its different because August is a ticking clock. Except when I was fifteen, but since then... time escapes in August.  I'm turning eighteen in thirteen days. I remember turning seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, and ( Read more... )

Its hard to balance work at the hospital (which I love) work at the office ( which I do only for the poor older women) my immediate family, my extended family (yes they're prying) my closest friends, keeping old friendships alive, any new people I've met this summer, working out (my trainer actually calls me, and asks me to come in)... let alone ( Read more... )

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Welp, its summer now. Its a great thing ( Read more... )

I feel different. Really different. I'm always changing it feels like. I'd like to stand still.. for a week? I mean its perfect, but I feel like I am running to keep up with how fast I am changing. No time for rest, second thoughts, and sometimes even conversation. It used to all be about conversation. For the last six months its been talk. talk. ( Read more... )

When I dont update, it usually because there is far too much going on, either in my head or my life. Both in this case. I get stuck explaining the littler things ( Read more... )

This weekend went well. When I think of it, there were no wasted thoughts or moments. Senior Assassin began abruptly and it was clear Ashley Cox was out to get Colleen and I. She hasnt suceeded yet. After school friday I went to a Psych review and for some reason I want to do well so I decided not to go to the highly anticipated Third Eye Blind ( Read more... )

Daily Extended: April 30, 2009
LEO
July 23-August 22

The sun is rising just a bit more brightly today and your heart is just a bit lighter. Do you feel the tide turning? Hope is a powerful thing, and you've been able to hold on to enough of it to make a real difference. Blue periods can be tough, but they always result in more self-awareness and ( Read more... )

So, I knew this decision for about three years now. I have officially put down my deposit to Stony Brook yesterday. Its just perfect, I couldnt be more excited to finally have it finalized. It was just such an accomplishment to get in and to find the money. I went down to the campus this week and it emphasized how much of a great fit the school is ( Read more... )