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This weekend went well. When I think of it, there were no wasted thoughts or moments. Senior Assassin began abruptly and it was clear Ashley Cox was out to get Colleen and I. She hasnt suceeded yet. After school friday I went to a Psych review and for some reason I want to do well so I decided not to go to the highly anticipated Third Eye Blind concert. I just had a gut feeling that I shouldnt have. Friday night I went to the circus with Perri. It was good to create new memories and it was a great way to just relax and have fun. Saturday was great too. We woke up, did some portraits, went to Weston to pick up mothers day gifts then I went home and slept for most of the day. In the evening I went to the mall with Chloe to finish mothers day shopping. Chloe thinks I'm like really innocent, and overly nice... I dont know why but she does, so she just laughs at everything I say and do. Makes me laugh too. THEN Me and Colleen went for our assignment but were caught up hiding from Ashley... Sunday: Mother's day. At 2 oclock I had the poetry reading, where I was freaking out. Colleen, her grandmother, and Brian came. I didnt invite anyone else. I figured my entourage wouldnt appropriate. It was nice, and such a personal accomplishment. Afterwards my extended family came over for Chinese, which made me sick cause I hardly eat greasy food anymore, I just dont have the taste for it. But they are great, I truly appreciate my grandmothers and my aunts and of course my mom.
On the more personal side of things, things are going pretty well. I'm winding down, doing some spring cleaning of the people in my life. I have found that the most recent hurt is being around someone real. I'm scared because, my feelings are genuine even though I am pushing them away. Time, more time and more time will fix my fear. If I have learned anything... its never the end of the world, and infact the more you may lose, the more you have ahead. I know no one is fooled - its not always optimism and unicorns and rainbows but I really do have confidence when I say I am doing pretty damn well.
On the more personal side of things, things are going pretty well. I'm winding down, doing some spring cleaning of the people in my life. I have found that the most recent hurt is being around someone real. I'm scared because, my feelings are genuine even though I am pushing them away. Time, more time and more time will fix my fear. If I have learned anything... its never the end of the world, and infact the more you may lose, the more you have ahead. I know no one is fooled - its not always optimism and unicorns and rainbows but I really do have confidence when I say I am doing pretty damn well.