Dropped her off at the ferry. Called my mom. And fell in love with my life. Played City and Colour. Felt too much. Cried again. Heard from a close friend. Heard she's scared. Heard my heart drop. Started studying, learned I havent learned much. Watched him speak. Shared clothes. Listened to Owen. Warm in bed. Too comfortable, too safe to fall ( Read more... )

"Outside the five sounds like the ocean.
Relax, don't keep your eyes open.
Don't look at the clock, your brain will never stop"

I feel like I will be missing these days as time goes on. Living and breathing. Feeling and healing. Laughing and loving.
I'm making big plans for the next four years.

As for writing about something juicy, life is juicy. Completely. There's always some drama actually, I don't know how its come to this, but every night is another story. I'm confused over myself. I'm being changed. I realized this morning at 6AM when I couldn't sleep how much I am dependent on others here. Chelsea went home for the week, Jackie ( Read more... )

You weren't waiting anyways. 

As of now I am on top of the world. My biggest worries lately have been classes, well more in particular, my math and my news lit class. These classes are actually my two favorite ones, and the ones I care about most. I had my math midterm last night at 8. Not to gas myself up, but I really think I did really well. Then this morning I went to my ( Read more... )

I have very minimal energy. I'm constantly hungry. And all food seems miles away and expensive. I can't tell if I am gaining weight or not. I miss the muscle ache of working out, but I can't trust mysef to have enough energy to finish the day afterwards. My sleeping patterns are messed up. I dont know why I enjoy napping better than sleeping ( Read more... )

Hmm, where to start. Still loving it here. I have my first midterm next thursday. I'm not sure how classes are going. They are so easy to skip, but I seem to be doing fine. I am all caught up, and I was even a little ahead the other day. Its like constant work though, which I am not used to since I don't even remember the last time I did real work ( Read more... )

I start entries all the time but never finish them. I got back to Stony Brook on Monday. Eddie and Maggie met me and Philipp at the LIRR right up the street. I left Framingham at 11:55, and arrived at SBU at 8 at night. Over the weekend I got a cold. So this week I was extremely sick, and spent a full day and night in bed with a fever. Then I began ( Read more... )

I leave to return to LI in a few hours. I woke early in need of Phenylephrine HCl and with subconscious awareness of needing to repack.

All life has been proven to be, is one big suitcase.

Finally. Alone in my dorm room. My two roommates both have class at 9:50 and I don't have my first one until 12:50. All my classes are late, leaving my mornings and early afternoon's free. It's actually kind of strange for me because, I'm an early bird.

I'm getting used to the schedule though, and haven't fallen asleep once before 3AM. In the ( Read more... )