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Is there something about me that causes you to stay away?
Maybe you've had a bad day?
Maybe its nothing to do with me at all.
Do I ask too much?
Where is that self-confidense that other people see in me?
Perhaps its just a smokescreen.
No one can be strong all of the time.
But why sometimes do I feel so weak? -
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i just want to be happy, but it feels like I don't know how. -
ramblings
I think maybe I need a new hobby ( Read more... ) -
anxiety and relationship
I have a lot of words swirling around in my head. This is totally not an uncommon thing for me to experience on any given night. How many hours and nights of sleep have I lost in this schertzo dance with my anxiety? Too many to count. I hate this life-long condition. I hate the combination of genetics and experiences that have brought me here ( Read more... ) -
bubble girl
There are two sure-fire ways to screw up my sleeping schedule: vacation and illness. Either one is lethal enough, but combine the two....a recipe for disaster. Combine this with having an anxiety disorder that gets thrown out of whack by illness and tiredness, and you can imagine the fun world that I exist in right now. Knowing that sleep is ( Read more... ) -
The year of sacrifice
It has been over a year since my road of chronic health issues started. And, perhaps since it is almost the end of this year, I find myself in a reflective mood ( Read more... ) -
uncertain
i hate the fact that everything in my life seems so uncertain. i wish i knew right now if i will be going back to school and where i will be living. fml.
i feel as though everything happens for a reason, but i'm lost on this one right now.
two junes, two crashes. not up for a third round. -
dreams
Lullaby to nightmares, whispered low
In the night where batwings flow
That's where all the frightmares go
When the elephants die
Wouldn't you like to try?
I've been having bizarre dreams again recently, which I attribute to stress. Today's, tho, was really strange. As is the fact that I can remember vivid details about it ( Read more... ) -
coaster
all i hope is that the rollercoaster that is my life doesn't decide to suddenly, magically, de-rail itself. -
alertness fades fast
much to say. too tired.
sometimes i wish there was someone here to just hold me when the world gets a little too crazy. some day.