Toenails.
Ever had a day when you lean down with a pair of nail clippers and realize that your toenails don't need clipping, even though you swore they were getting too long last night, and that the only logical conclusion is that someone must have cut them while you slept?
I am having such a day.

I sound like... Rosencratz. That's odd, usually I ( Read more... )

The second was Science Fiction

I was browsing through the Science-Fiction section in Chapters, and I realized that the visual narrative of the covers of sci-fi books has deep parallels with the way I look at things and consider how they should look. Not all the covers - certainly not these new abstract covers where The Children of Men just has an ( Read more... )

Hierarchy: The drive to control and to create hierachies of superior and inferior, master and slave. This is tied to our relationship to nature, children, animals, other countries, those weaker or stronger than us and the state, plus it affects our everyway ways of thinking and determines how we put our abilities into practice. Noel Sturgeon wrote ( Read more... )

Chronic psychological shittyness led me to seek out a physician and now I've taken two 37.5 mg doses of effexor. The big reason for this is that I was having trouble sleeping and, throughout the last 24 hours, I've felt as if I've  just had  two cups of coffee.

This raises questions surronding the word "am." Is this an altered state of me? Or would ( Read more... )

...and Gilgamesh lost his

The urge towards self-______ is here again.

Self what? Not self-destruction; but perhaps a shade of self-annihilation and some self-escape with aspects of self-transformation.

This happens from time to time: the urge to slip away like ice cream under a brick. The urge to shift, change (from least to most) my dress, routine, ( Read more... )

There are ramifications to this dissolution of boundaries. If who 'I am' is an arbitrary midpoint between a cell and an ecosystem, between a moment's stray thought and a universe alive with cognition, then 'my' existence or nonexistence is basically unimportant. "I" am a bucket full of water in an ocean, minus the physical bucket.

More to the point ( Read more... )

So, where I'm going with this talk of evolution and cognitionwhere I have gone with this, is what if our concepts of individualty ( Read more... )

A few people mention him, usually in passing. Outside of my mother, I've only heard "you remind me of him" once.

So be it: a man takes his own life. He's one of many I suppose.

But... I want answers. That I'm so interested disturbs me. For someone who's so gung-ho on society before biology (adopt!) (before god?), why am I so intent? I'm twenty- ( Read more... )