alright so basically. heres what happened. i didnt think alex was treating me the way he should be. on thursday night we talked. i suggested a break. he considered it and agreed. i went home and sobbed. i realized it was a stupid idea. he told me he needed more time.

on top of that i had horrible sleep thursday night. woke up sick as hell and have ( Read more... )

i almost wish i'd never fallen in love.
it would make everything so much easier.
i mean it's worth it and it's always been worth it to me.
but it makes everything harder.

haha everyones freaking out and writing in their ljs.

no but seriously.
location is my hardest decision now. everything i was sure of has shattered. 
friendships. my relationship. jim ( Read more... )

shit. i usually  get stressed out at the beginning of every school year but my god.
add college and major friend issues and im a walking disaster.
and my classes are decent, but are way huge and i hate big classes and i feel very pressured in all of them.
all i know is that i HAVE to get out of my math class. HAVE TO.
i cry when im stressed & have been ( Read more... )

i'm just so frusturated lately ( Read more... )

so about life. it's good lately. it saddens me to think we're on the downhill of summer, but it really has been good. and what's worse (or maybe not)(but weird to think about) is that this is the last summer we'll have where we'll be returning to hinsdale central in the fall. i dont know its just a strange thought.

anyways, ever since alex went away ( Read more... )

alright so screw everything i've said.
i've thought a lot lately. & i've been bitching about summer and this and that and whatever. i realized that i'm just not appreciating what i have. for some reason i'm feeling like i need something more, but i was just overlooking the amazing things i've got. ok so i havent gotten shitfaced a billion times this ( Read more... )

edit:
FUCK SUMMER
AND FUCK STUPID PEOPLE
AND FUCK MARY BEING GONE

so i have this feeling - i think summer just got good.

so i've been having really bad bouts of insomnia lately.
this is just one.
and i have to wake up early tomorrow.
every other night i come home early and fall asleep by 12 with nothing to do the next day, but NOW i can't sleep. typical
alright this has effectively wasted 3 minutes.

why can't i ever get out what i really mean ( Read more... )