so everyones entitled to a little bit of crazy, and thats definitely something i tend to forget. i always have to be the fixer... the one whos got her shit covered... the one that doesnt really need anyone to help her out... im learning though that thats not always the case. even i go crazy.... went kinda crazy this weekend simply becuase i wanted ( Read more... )

so, whole bunch o' shit.... in no particular order ( Read more... )

so, officially im not smoking anymore on weekdays. this is the first time that im actually going to try to discipline myself to do this... gotta summon the will power from somewhere. i can already feel the fogginess in my brain that makes me want to smoke more coming in... it makes me sleepy and forlorn... sure, THC isnt physically addicting.... ( Read more... )

so, i wish i had one of those "my doctor says i cant take this midterm because i have an acute case of lovesickness" notes for my test today. at least i realize that im slightly fucked and will now spend the whole day cramming for this damn thing, and in the future i wont be as much of a dumbass especially once i get my grades for this test back ( Read more... )

i have a feeling that this is just going to get worse every week... i mean the whole missing the boy and not wanting to be apart from him thing.... i just want to crawl inside his head and live there... is that wrong? or weird? i dont think so.... i think that everyone whos ridiculously in love just wants that kind of thing...
speaking words, more ( Read more... )

talked to Dad today. he said that he had talked to Zach and told him about his upset, disappointment, loss of trust, and Zachs punishment for his behavior. what pisses me off the most is that Zach doesnt recognize that what he did is wrong. he doesnt understand the severity of the situation or the extent of Dad's sadness and rage over what happened ( Read more... )

so, finally got my period. of course now i feel like complete shit and have thusly been laid up all damn day. well... that was mainly a choice. i totally could have gone out and done things but ya know that just didnt sound like a very good idea. i think im going through a phase where my body chemistry is changing. needless to say things feel ( Read more... )

so its been a while, but ive found that once youre content with your life the less and less you have to say about it. its when youre all full of angst and upset that you feel the need to talk it out all the time.... no wonder everyone around you can get such a skewed sense of whats actually happening with you because you only really need to talk ( Read more... )

so..... since i last wrote in this bitch my life has completely changed. this has been the most dramatic/fun/terrible/hard/amazing spring break that i think ive ever had.... i dont really know where to begin. i suppose i should do one of those cool movie things and start with a peek at the end and then speed back to the beginning... yeah that ( Read more... )

back in NM for spring break, and thus far it hasnt been too painful (minus the trip to the DMV where those cranky BITCHES who work there would not cut me some slack and renew my damn drivers license... apparently in order to change your address you need physical proof of your residence at that address... like a voter's registration card. which i ( Read more... )