men learn to be men
talked to Dad today. he said that he had talked to Zach and told him about his upset, disappointment, loss of trust, and Zachs punishment for his behavior. what pisses me off the most is that Zach doesnt recognize that what he did is wrong. he doesnt understand the severity of the situation or the extent of Dad's sadness and rage over what happened. Zach really infuriates me when he does shit like this. our parents give us so much and he doesnt understand that those things are gifts. our college education is a gift. his brand new fucking car is a gift. not five days after Dad gives Zach his new car Zach turns right around and betrays Dad's trust. im disappointed in Zach. it makes me feel like Zach is using me too even though all the things that i do for him i want to do (in most cases). hes never really been punished... hes never had to worry about anything real.... never really had to be without. its funny what that does to people. i mean, i was talking with Lisa about all of this and she was like 'yeah when i tell people about you they ask if youre one of those people whos just always been handed things, and i say yeah her parents are well off but shes not like that.' i dont think i am either... yeah, money has never been a real issue for me because i was gifted with amazing parents, but im grateful and i understand that they can take all those things away any moment. Zach just expects to get things.... he doesnt understand that Dad and Kathy's house is THEIR house now and not his... he doesnt live there anymore. its really upsetting for me because i can see Dad and Zach getting into it and since theyre the same damn person, theyll both just dig their stubborn heals in and their relationship will suffer. i dont want to have to be the mediator for the rest of my life... i dont want Dad to have me be the relay person between them... it makes me really really sad to think about it.