wow, what a motherfucking day. im so drained. fuck. got to work at 7:30, by nine i had left. went to two hospitals, was in an autopsy for 2.5 hours and had to fingerprint four dead bodies. i tell ya, im never gonna look at meat the same again. fortunately, the smell wasnt that bad, except when they took his intestines out and when they sawed his ( Read more... )

the past few weeks have been really fun, the co-op course has been amazing and i just got to go see a prisoner being fingerprinted and photographed downtown and this huge fight broke out, it was kinda cool. i thought i would be afraid (hehe,lynds) but i really wasnt. i guess it was just that side of me that felt normal there. i really like this. im ( Read more... )

I laid there quiet, watched you have your way with me I might have cried, the tears were silent inside you see ( Read more... )

so joey just sent me the recording of us. finally. i listened to it yesterday with her and steph after school and it made me sad. you were yelling my name and i was right across the room. we were crashing chairs and you talked about the possessed bumper cars. it was like everything was the same and everything was okay again. it was like you were ( Read more... )

"i wish i could say that everyone was wrong"

iamsofuckingtiredsoyoubetternotbotherme

have you ever listened to a song that you havent heard in a long, long time and it just brings you back to a time when you were really, trully happy? and then you smile just because you miss that time so much and you realise that no matter what anybody says, you will love this song forever, because it makes you feel happy again, and that you can be ( Read more... )

i hate days like these, when the skies cant decide whether they want it to be a nice day or a sunny day. i hate it.

but spending time with one person made it all worth while.

if ive said it once, ive said it a million times

L.I.F.E. S.U.X

and its always fucking unfair.

once again im stupid enough to open myself up to someone who doesnt care, someone who never has and never will.

i fucking believed that you werent gonna play me this time. just one more example i have of why life truly sucks shit.

to think that i was gonna tell you more just blows me away.

i remember a long time ago when i was actually happy. not just calm and ready to start the day but actually happy. a time when i looked forward to going to school and seeing reaper and lynds and everyone else, a time when i could smile and not feel stupid about doing it afterwords. i felt like i was okay and that i would never feel this way again ( Read more... )