and i had a feeling i could be someone

[hockeychick5]

i remember a long time ago when i was actually happy. not just calm and ready to start the day but actually happy. a time when i looked forward to going to school and seeing reaper and lynds and everyone else, a time when i could smile and not feel stupid about doing it afterwords. i felt like i was okay and that i would never feel this way again.

i miss you all so much and i wish that i didnt because it would make it so much easier. but the pain will never stop and im sorry. i just cant let go to the past no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i want to. ive tried to move on but its just a brick wall standing in front of me. one that im not strong enough to break down. and never will be.

maybe we could break it down together?