[Milliways] OOM: Capital City, Eiattu
She could barely believe it when Rial's servant had dropped them off in front of the low-lying, bulbous, pale beige coloured hotel building on the bay. When she and James had entered their assigned suite, it had been like entering a dream. This flat was more luxurious than anything either could ever afford. And, Rial had promised that it was theirs for as long as they liked.
A week later, and everything was still perfect. Exploring the capital city had been terrific, especially in seeing James' reaction to everything alien. All their attempts to try and drive a landspeeder had been full of laughs. Day trips to the outlining swamps had been full of adventure. Attempts to blend in with the jewelery drenched native humans had been met with more giggles. And, of course, there had been the time spent in the room together. It was her dream honeymoon, without a doubt.
Perhaps, then, the only problem was how it reminded her of what she lacked now in her life. This wasn't the first time she had spent a wonderful duration on an alien planet without any wrong. Despite their tendency to get into danger, she and the Doctor had found times and places that were simply safe and enjoyable. Eiattu reminded her of all that. And, despite her ability to push the conversation aside (mostly) for the past few weeks, the Doctor's words kept coming back to haunt her.
You're no longer the Sarah Jane Smith I knew. I don't know if you'll even be able to get back onto the TARDIS you came from. I don't know if our universe will let you back in. It may not recognize you anymore.
She stares out across the bay from her seat on the balcony. James had left earlier that day to explore the city some more. Sarah had feigned a horrible bout of morning sickness. That hadn't been the case, though. Today, she's suffering from heart sickness instead.
Can't I go back? After the baby? To travel with you more, to see my aunt? Can't I? It's my home. I don't --- I don't want to lose everything, Doctor.
A person can't have two homes. If in your heart and mind, your place is with James, then that becomes your home, and the bar will lock you away from your life before.
The words keep running about in her head, nearly making her dizzy. Down below, the smells and sounds of the port drift upward. She doesn't notice any of them. All she sees is the Doctor's face and their row. All she can feel is the overwhelming despair that she can't go home again.
She's tried to fight it. But in the end, her fears and sorrows have caught up.
A week later, and everything was still perfect. Exploring the capital city had been terrific, especially in seeing James' reaction to everything alien. All their attempts to try and drive a landspeeder had been full of laughs. Day trips to the outlining swamps had been full of adventure. Attempts to blend in with the jewelery drenched native humans had been met with more giggles. And, of course, there had been the time spent in the room together. It was her dream honeymoon, without a doubt.
Perhaps, then, the only problem was how it reminded her of what she lacked now in her life. This wasn't the first time she had spent a wonderful duration on an alien planet without any wrong. Despite their tendency to get into danger, she and the Doctor had found times and places that were simply safe and enjoyable. Eiattu reminded her of all that. And, despite her ability to push the conversation aside (mostly) for the past few weeks, the Doctor's words kept coming back to haunt her.
You're no longer the Sarah Jane Smith I knew. I don't know if you'll even be able to get back onto the TARDIS you came from. I don't know if our universe will let you back in. It may not recognize you anymore.
She stares out across the bay from her seat on the balcony. James had left earlier that day to explore the city some more. Sarah had feigned a horrible bout of morning sickness. That hadn't been the case, though. Today, she's suffering from heart sickness instead.
Can't I go back? After the baby? To travel with you more, to see my aunt? Can't I? It's my home. I don't --- I don't want to lose everything, Doctor.
A person can't have two homes. If in your heart and mind, your place is with James, then that becomes your home, and the bar will lock you away from your life before.
The words keep running about in her head, nearly making her dizzy. Down below, the smells and sounds of the port drift upward. She doesn't notice any of them. All she sees is the Doctor's face and their row. All she can feel is the overwhelming despair that she can't go home again.
She's tried to fight it. But in the end, her fears and sorrows have caught up.