why are things so difficult i just don't understand why god can't be on my side once in awhile ( Read more... )

today was eventful. i worked a long ass shift on about three hours of sleep and to top it off the cooks came in an hour late as i was sitting on the bench just twiddling my thumbs. while working, steve sent me a text that said, "i hate you so much i wish you were dead. i hope you get into a crash while youre on matts bike. i wish i never met you. ( Read more... )

its so funny how much a person changes after a breakup. like half the shit they ever said to you was straight bullshit. i guess thats normal. it sucks more when people you thought were your friends seemingly go out of their way to try to make you jealous by hanging out with your ex boyfriend 24/7. i dont give a fuck...those are people im not trying ( Read more... )

here are some of the things i know ( Read more... )

i'm gonna start writing in this thing again.

i havent updated this thing in well over a month so i guess that means i've been really busy. i quit catering to pursue waitressing, while embracing affirmative action for my heritage, at the thai restaraunt in dover. pretty pumped because i start today ( Read more... )

been having all these crazy nightmares that steve is cheating on me. the people that he cheats on me range from realistic to down right laughable. doesn't matter, the feeling in the morning when i wake up still sucks even though i know its a dream. i can't shake off the feeling for at least two or three hours without dwelling on a wisp of a thought ( Read more... )

this weekend was probably the worst, best, and most awkward series of events i've ever gone through in 72 hours. in short, i met up with mati and we had a very long, interesting, shocking, funny, catch-up, secret telling talk. it was really nice. i had forgotten what had made me date that man for 2 years! i went to jenna rugh's graduation party and ( Read more... )

LIFE SUCKS I WISH I WAS SIXTEEN SO THIS ENTRY WAS ACCEPTABLE. FUCK YOU.

things have been going downhill lately. my life is one big maniac rollercoaster. got fired from my nannying job. started catering 10X more now. start classes in one week. balls. lots of my friends are leaving college and graduating and going on to bigger and better things. i wish them luck ( Read more... )