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Oh hai
I almost forgot about that journal.
It doesn't really matter since that entry is probably the last one.
So, in case of anyone was wondering if i received a reply from Maxence: yes, i received one, and then two as i replied myself, and i just sent a letter yesterday.
And to the question "are you together now, did he accept?", the answer is yes.
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If only my heart had a voice
So here we are.
I broke off with my bf, maybe late bf cause he said he was going to kill himself.
Maybe i'll regret it someday.
For the moment, i'm glad i could make that long step forward a new found happiness. Maybe?
At last, i'm "free".
It was high time to think about my own happiness, and not his. He would've done anything for me, anything.
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ROFL
Hahaha XD OMG i JUST saw something which left me utterly speechless, i swear!
To make it, really short: remember the time when i said i had seen a photo of Neall where he really was cute?
Well, i just saw the opposite, on the same place.
And that thing i saw got him, i'm sure, totally out of my head.
I mean, it made me realize how this earlier pic i ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Secret Crush
As for me i kept it secret as long as possible. I thought it was secret, anyway, before my friends told me it was obvious lol. BUT i think he still doesn't know. And it's better like that cause he has a girlfriend, and i would feel bad if he, or she, or they found out.
And it was exciting somehow, to have my own little secret, my own little " ( Read more... ) -
I am 21.
And it makes no difference.
I'm sad i didn't hear about Maxence that special day. Maybe he didn't know, maybe he could not, maybe he does not care.
All of that is really troubling me.
My current loneliness does make me feel like that, right? It can't be but that.
How is it only possible to be in love with three men at the same time?
Or what i'm feeling ( Read more... ) -
My fall will be for you, my love will be in you...
Hey, guess what?
I think i'm starting to forget Neall. Maybe i have less time to think about him, maybe someday you'll read "oh shit, i'm thinking about him" again. But for the time being, yes, i'm forgetting him. Good thing, isn't it? Yay!
I don't know if i really want to forget him, because i kinda feel better in my dreams, and my dreams need to be ( Read more... ) -
I had a good title, but i forgot it
If some people get there, they may wonder: why Toshiya? And why Neall above all?
You know what, i don't have a clear idea.
All i know about Toshiya, is that i'd like to feel his lips against mine just once.
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Just thinking
Ah, he looks so glad with his girlfriend, they look so happy with each other. It fills my heart with joy for them being so lucky, and sadness in the same time.
Knowing his smile will never be for me...
I know i have to grow up, grow up. And think like the adult i am supposed to be.
But i can't help comparing each man i see with him, with the very ( Read more... ) -
It happens
Oh crap ( Read more... ) -
So...
Yeah, i guess that guy, Neall, is fucking mocking me.
He's right.
Somehow i cannot help thinking of him, but really i can't imagine how it would have been if we've had talked to each other.
How am i supposed to know?
Maybe he's just plain stupid. Maybe he's too clever.
I liked his voice, i liked his laughter, i liked his british accent, and i liked his ( Read more... )