just want to be held. do miss warmth next to me. rosco doesn't cover enough of me. plus i smoosh him. i wish goodness and happiness to people. i know times are tough for everyone. life's tough right now for me. and sometimes i just want to yell and scream or cry and i look around and it calms me down. driving in silence. just the wind creeping in ( Read more... )

sighs, got rejected. i suppose i won't be so nervous around her now and won't be in my mind so much...but yeah...still kinda painful and hurt. it never feels good to be rejected. oh wells. i should go numb myself now. ohs and it was really shitty to hear that she made out with mendi. that was def more painful than being rejected...and to hear about ( Read more... )

you know, this feeling of wanting/needing someone...it's just that I need someone to be a witness to my life. a witness to my existence. cuz otherwise, I'm just lost into the millions of people out there. that's prolly why we wanna feel loved. and when we choose to forget that we exist...nothing really matters. consequences don't matter. our ( Read more... )

had a funny dream last night. funny weird. this is all i can remember. was hanging out with yuh-line and i walk into a room and she's there sitting next to nadine chatting it up. weird. and so i sit down all awkward and not knowing what to say or do but she smiles at me and talks to me, like everything's cool/okay. it was weird but comforting ( Read more... )

i got a puppy! he's a tiny lil bastard. drunk named him rosco(e) and it stuck. he's 7 weeks now and can kinda sit and go down and shake! got him, lets see, last last sunday. sept 30th i guess (just for my own record). he still pees and poos everywhere and anywhere he wants but he does know that if he goes on the diaper paper he gets a treat...i ( Read more... )

it was late last night. i think i posted a lotta crap....

so i've been having a lotta dreams about my ex. it's quite weird. things are always nice and peaceful between us in these dreams. and i'd be lying if i said i didn't want to get back together with her in these dreams. i'm usually having okay conversations with her, i think about the past and part of me wants to win her back. i've been thinking ( Read more... )

betty lonely and sad again. sighs. where is she? how long i gotta wait and look for this girl dammit?

meh. it tickles. me heart strings. and the strings in my pants too. attraction works in funny ways. i don't understand it. but i'm not sure how to go about this and so i'm sittin' back and waiting. tryin' to act all cool and shiz. haha. i must look a fool. she wants me though. oh yeah. the thing is though....i need security and at this point in ( Read more... )

fucking girls. fuckin' tall blonde sexy piece of hottness. fuck.