The year I was 27, was the best of my life, so far. It was Seminole and singular. As with most experiences in my life that move me, nothing in particular happened that year. There was no grand life experience, no wedding, no child coming into my life, no house to buy, no fantastic career path, no fortuitous meeting, no amazing journey. There was no ( Read more... )

Screw ‘em all but the 6 you want for pall-bearers.

Been thinking. Been tired ( Read more... )

I'm leaving tomorrow morning, bright and early to visit my former housemates in SF for 5 days.

Technically, the day i come back (Tuesday) will take all day. But this will be my first real vacation in years. No easy access to home, no particular point other than hanging out with friends.

Let's see if i can just relax!

I don't think I can explain how wonderful it is to be around a group of people, even if it is virtually, who get excited when they feel well, to do house work.

I swear, every time someone in the group has a good day, they immediately get happy to be able to clean part of their house. I don't think people without an illness that saps all your ( Read more... )

I don't think I can explain how relieved I feel. I needed the week of xanax as a tool to rewire my thinking about my symptoms. And now, while I still have symptoms of the IIH I still feel so much better ( Read more... )

This is the point at which I feel like I'm whining (aka. I'm sick of having to think about it therefore everyone else must by tired of hearing me talk about it).

However, I've got to go through the same obsessively ordered internal vetting process that I went through when I originally processed my mental illness to ferret out all the minute details ( Read more... )

I'm going to keep a log of everything related to my headaches for a while. I suspect that the anxiety is directly caused by my IIH issues and want to catalog my symptoms when my headaches hit to prove my point ( Read more... )

I woke up today, relaxed, for the first time in months.

I think what's bothering me the most about everything that's gone on is that I have this other invisible disease that I can't fully predict. I'm already on constant vigilance mode for my mental illness, so now I have to learn to be constantly vigilant for the IIH. Except there's very little I can be vigilant about. It's going to do what it wants to ( Read more... )