My job. Where do I even start? In a nutshell, I'm sick of it. I'm tired of bending over backwards for a thankless job and also one that pays nothing for the amount of shit and things that I have to deal with on a daily basis. I've always told myself since I accepted the position that if I only last a year in the position, I'd feel greatly ( Read more... )

Its ironic that when you decide that you're done with love and done trying to find love and done believing that love could possibly exist and, an even more ridiculous thought, have love find you, that you end up wanting it more than ever. Actually, my exact words (read: text message) to a good friend of mine was "Fuck love. Let's just fuck.". I'm ( Read more... )

Is it possible for me to meet someone new and develop a friendship with them first before its all turned upside-down, three times round by sex? I don't think I'm stretching for the stars with this one. I would just love to have a friendship with another guy and not have sex fuck everything up the process of something developing into something worth ( Read more... )

You know when you get something in your head and then you wonder why its bouncing around in there? This has happened all of a sudden this morning. "Born to blossom, bloom to perish" is swishing around my mind and I don't know why. I'm dwelling on its meaning and relevance to my life currently. I was driving and then bam, the Gwen lyric popped into ( Read more... )

Holy crap to having a whole lot of things happening recently, or at least since my last post (which has also been quite some time, this I know). All mostly good things, some questionable... No. All good... For the most part anyways...

Let's start back to about a month ago when I decided to take a leave of absence from school. Well, I did just that.  ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what I wanted out of life. I've been constantly thinking about this the past two weeks or so and I'm kind of driving myself crazy. I have been in such a horrible mood that I find myself very tired and getting really angry at things that I shouldn't get so worked up over. Part of me knows every little thing that I want to do with my ( Read more... )

I find that I keep self-resolutions when I keep them to myself and not share them with everyone and anyone who will listen to me blabble about such topics. I've already been really well on track for the past two weeks or so, so let's hope that this continues well on to the future where it won't be as much of a task to stay concentrated on.

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My car insurance is due by 12.01am Friday, fine and dandy. I go to my other bank account yesterday to take out money to cover the $304 for six months and promptly deposit it into my M&T account afterwards. That left me yesterday with $333 in my account. Swell. I come online tonight to make the payment online, but have a lightbulb moment and say, 'G ( Read more... )

I have such a strong connection to music, especially when I associate it with specific times of my life and/or events. This morning I was listening to Lisa Loeb and this crazy rush of emotions came flooding back to me and I was left incredibly moved by this longing for that time to be back again. That time was basically all of last year in Fredonia ( Read more... )

So I just went through photos on my facebook page and now I'm all nostalgic and boohooing about the awesome year this was and missing Fredonia way too much. Things have been going rather smoothly lately, minus the crazy three-week throat infection I'm currently finishing fighting. I feel like I'm in the major I should be in. Classes, for the most ( Read more... )