Post Christmas, post new years, post valentine's.....I didn't lie about a break for awhile. Its just been a very up and down drama-filled few months. And those nearest and dearest to me know my thoughts on drama....if i wanted that life I would stayed going to the club all the time, drinking like a fish and dating assholes. I didn't take that ( Read more... )

seems no one posts here as much as we once did...then again it also feels i don't talk to anyone as much as i did. just have alot of things going one as of late but i wanted to poke my nose in and say allo and let people know that i'm not dead.

expect a update in better depth post christmas...the holidays are dragging me down...

<3

another day in the bane of my existance...another day where i can't find the words I long for. The words to make this right.

1. Do you have a tattoo ( Read more... )

so things have been looking up lately. Partly perhaps because I've actually sought help for my problems which is hard but prolly much needed. But also I got the re-assurances on some things that I needed. And to be fair I prolly shoulda been more direct about insecurities and issues from the start and not tried to allude to them and maybe it ( Read more... )

Once upon a time there lived a girl who wanted more than anything to be happy. To feel real and complete. And try as she did to find the means, in just about everything she continously failed. She tried to find solace in liquor, which only caused more problems. She tried finding a prince to rescue her, but seems her perception was always off. ( Read more... )

It's no lie that I haven't felt myself lately. And I've been trying to fix all of it, I really have. Maybe I've been trying too hard and that's why nothing really works or it all seems so temporary. Maybe its because life is so temporary and lately I've been feeling how short everything is. Sorry I've been in a morbid kinda mood. And I know ( Read more... )

fuck depression fuck people fuck work fuck it all

maybe one day I'll win this battle but obviously despite all of it all its not gonna be today....

fuck
fuck
fuck

*curls up in ball to cry* realizes where she is and that she can't................

So it's been awhile....Seems just like I can't commit to a paper journal the same can be said for my online havens. Things have been much better lately, not perfect, but well perfection is boring. Went to Kire's family reunion, had a surprisingly good time. And his birthday is this week, still need to finish getting things together for that ( Read more... )

So my birthday is coming up soon...in 10 days in fact. No party or such this year, but I'm prolly going to the club the 20th so it'd be nice to see people out. Also I'll prolly try to figure out a bar night at Tattooed Mom's to hang out. It'd just be really nice to get some people out to lounge, nothing fancy.