This is just to kind of organize my thoughts and get stuff off my chest ( Read more... )

また週末来てまた一人で何もしていない。友達いるなのにどうして、どうしてほとんど会えないかよ。どうして僕に会いたくもないか。もうあきた。僕の趣味やフィギュアやＢＤやＤＶＤを捨てて偽者の普通人間になるといいかな。

New Year's Eve and I can't drink. Totally pointless.

I've spent a while being myself. It's not working out. Maybe it's time I just figure out what the world wants out of me instead? I spend all day at work pretending to be someone else anyway....

いつからだろう。いつからこの価値もない人生生きて過ごしているのか。十年前か十五年前か。その間で僕はいつも自分を責めるそしてどんどん自分を大嫌でもこれは意外な気持ちじゃない。これは僕のしたことも僕の決定も結果だけだ。それは確かなのにどうして僕はそんなに苦しんでいる、どうしてこの無駄な人生を生きてならないんだ。なにもかわらずひとりでいきて続けているは無意味だ。誰も僕を助けない変わるチャンスもないんだからもう疲れた。

So this is my new, revised level list. I suppose this is the 4th edition. I left the original descriptions for each level mostly intact. Of course this list is entirely subjective, furthermore the decision on whether to put some shows into L2 or L3 is rather difficult. For L1 I loosened up a bit and added some shows I'd normally stick in L2 ( Read more... )

I made this list a while ago (revised with a number of suggestions). Essentially the goal is to categorize enjoyable anime according to how much into the fandom you need to be to enjoy it. This also includes tolerance level for things like these factors: cultural humor, fandom references, violence/gore/blood, sexual content, etc. I'd like to revise ( Read more... )

So sad my tears won't fall.
So angry even my scream is choked.
So empty but I still don't collapse.
Only my heart continues to be crushed.

This is the text of a Shinto prayer, one of the most important. If any of you wish to pray for Japan, perhaps this is most appropriate. Probably none of you have a Kamidana (if you don't know what that means, you don't have one). Anyway you can say this prayer while facing the sun (as Amaterasu-ōmikami) don't forget 2 bows, 2 claps, one bow ( Read more... )

It's funny that this is the one thing I'm gonna write about here that I'd say people in my every day life know more about than everything else. Either way I don't really feel about putting much about it on Facebook nor does it make a wonderful topic for discussion ( Read more... )