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It's been 5 years.....5 years.... and it still hurts as if it were yesterday.... I'm sitting at my office trying to NOT focus on the reality of what today is but I have finally just broken down...it's been a difficult few weeks and today it's starting to overwhelm me. Today in 2005 my sister found my dad brutally murdered in his apartment. And ( Read more... )

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Wow, i can't believe how long it's been since i've written here. I think imma be back here instead of the myspace place where i've gone to, lol. I was thinking a lot about people today.... i thought bout the people that are in my life, the people who are real and always there, and the people who give excuses and are not so real and truthful. I had ( Read more... )

As i sit here I try not to think to much about it all... Around this time of year I start to want to isolate myself and just dissapear I guess you can say. As every year passes by it doesn't stop the pain I'm feeling and that I carry within me everyday. I wish I could do it all over and be there for him but alas I cannot. I tend to blame myself for ( Read more... )

Well it's Sept 11th. I woke up thiking about where I was 5 years ago this day and then headed off to work saying to myself I'm going to make it a ggod day despite they day ( Read more... )

I'm here at the computer lab at school just trying to figure out what I want to do with myself.I've been out of school for a while and feel and need to return. I can't believe it's going to be 10 years out of high school. That's crazy to me. It hasn't even felt that long. I've been going through some shit but who hasn't. If we didn't have all these ( Read more... )

Today as I was driving to work felt weird...... it wasn't like an ordinary day.. it was similar to when my dad passed. It was dress up day at work and I cam as Snow White (Disney theme Day) and it was crazy. I looked at my phone and I had amissed call from my mom and for some reason I decided to check the message right then and there. Usually I'll ( Read more... )

Today has been a day of a lot of thinking and it's 4:39pm.....today is my aunt's Tia Juana's birthday may she rest in peace. It is also the day of her Saint. St. Juan. On this day people go to their mirror cover it with a white cloth and ask a question and you see a reflection of your answer. It's almost like a projector type effect ( Read more... )

I'm here at work at it's 8:25pm....I just got back from dropping off one of my poor innocent children who doesn't deserve to be in the situation he's currently in. It's not fair for him to have to live with a mother like that. A mom who only cares about her addiction and the "illegal boyfriend" who isn't any better for him. I fear for him... I look ( Read more... )