Eyes open and awake........

[goddesseliza]

As i sit here I try not to think to much about it all... Around this time of year I start to want to isolate myself and just dissapear I guess you can say. As every year passes by it doesn't stop the pain I'm feeling and that I carry within me everyday. I wish I could do it all over and be there for him but alas I cannot. I tend to blame myself for everything that happened because I felt like I could've done something to prevent it all. I don't know sometimes in a room full of people I feel so alone......... I just want someone to tell me it will all be okay even though I know it will does that make any sense?

There are good days, better days and some not so good days where I wish I could turn the hands of time and change everything. I miss you daddy.

I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you.........i will forever live with that guilt........

-Ellie