Well, I've officially got a new journal now, under the name fleshballoon. So if you're a mod/old friend, yes, I am the same as fleshballoon. Lemme innnnnn!

 Aaaaand GOALLLL!!!

HELL YEAH!!!

179.8, people, that's .2 below my goal for the month. And, considering that it's only the 19th, I'm going to try and lose, hmm... 4 more lbs, so I'll be 176 on Halloween. Because I know that my weight being where it is is mostly because of not eating and dehydration. So if I lose 4 more lbs... WHEN I lose 4 more lbs ( Read more... )

Well! I was... 191.4 on, uh... Wednesday? Well, it's Friday and when I weighed myself this morning it said 182.8! I know it's not from burning fat, but still, it's encouraging. I didn't really eat yesterday: I had two apricot ales and a couple cheese-and-sour cream ruffles. The cat started licking my chips (they were on a plate) which was really ( Read more... )

 So, I caught The Boy peeking at my lj. And because of this, I will have to make certain posts

FRIENDS ONLY

So if you want the full journal, just comment or add me, and I'll add you!

oh, shit. my weight just keeps going up, up, up! It was 191.4 last I checked... gotta do it again, that was night before last ( Read more... )

 So, oh man, am I fucked up! I drank a bunch of Delsym and I'm like.... can't even explain. I threw up because I made myself do it because I felt sick, and now I feel better, but also I was thinking, when it happened, "so that's how you do it... I just haven't been going far enough down!" so I'm hoping that this isn't the beginning of some horrible ( Read more... )

 Somebody who is in recovery posted about her struggles. My comment ended up being really long-winded, but I found that it actually helped me with my own situation in a way that I had not anticipated. I have really been getting sucked down a hole, but I was, as I said in the comment, reminded of my priorities.

This is what I wrote:

Even just forcing ( Read more... )

 Great, so, here I am all, "oh, my boyfriend is so understanding blahblahblah" and here he goes "I don't think eating pizza before bed is a winning strategy" UM YEAH I KNOW.

I'm pretty sure I've got the facts on food down pretty well. Dick. dfl;asjkeg;aerilgj;aerlg I am annoyed!

Very annoyed!

I mean, it's not like he's bossy or controlling (like I ( Read more... )

haha, so I guess there was some thing about fasting on body perfect that some folks got a little agitated over... that's pretty funny. for a second it hurt my feelings until I realized that, um, there's no need. I think it was kind of ballsy, actually. The best part was someone in the comments saying that the comm was a bunch of girls with anorexia ( Read more... )

so, well... I'm eating. kind of. I've got this hangover that's affecting me pretty badly as far as emotions go; physically it's not too bad. I ate three and a half smallish meatballs in tomato sauce, four pieces of bowtie pasta, and some peas. I didn't intend or try to eat so little, it's just that I picked at it so slowly and with itty bites and ( Read more... )