i don't like how so many things in my life are changing. i feel like i just got used to how things were, and they were nearly perfect. now, people are graduating, people are moving, college is ending, future is approaching, and i'm not ready for it all. one of my best friends left today and i'm sad. really sad and i can't stop thinking about how ( Read more... )

I made her...she is different ( Read more... )

i'm up, then down. high, then low. it's so lame. i feel like an idiot all the time. i used to live with joy in my heart, and an excitement to grow and serve. things have changed. i don't feel like myself lately. i'm in the right place, at the perfect time. my heart just sucks right now ( Read more... )

this is a new year and i can only pray that i make it an awesome one. a year where i'll realize the abundance of blessings in my life. a year where i'll gain discipline in all areas of my life from the physical to the spiritual. a year where i'll stop talking when i shouldn't be talking and where my yes's will be yes's and my no's will be no's. and ( Read more... )

so, i think i'm bi-polar. i have days where everything is against me, and then the next, everything is wonderful. yesterday, i didn't go into work for a handful of reasons. 1. i feel useless there sometimes and they don't like it when i come in and have nothing to do. 2. i'm freakin lazy as anything and i overslept so i figured i deserved a day off ( Read more... )

THveritasAW: he should fall in love with you

carly always knows what to say to make me smile.
i love her.

she gives me hope, and comforts me her unconditional love.
i am so blessed.

katy is getting married! david had his meeting with the immigration people in budapest this morning at 3, different over there, but 3am here, and they approved him. holy crap. katy is getting married for real now. and she has never been so happy. she deserves this so much. god is so good. and she knows it and it's so refreshing to hear joy in her ( Read more... )

my life is crazy, and by crazy i mean amazing. nothing is better than a friend introducing you to one of their friends by saying, "this is melanie, she's amazing." how nice is that? yeah, this friend is always so nice and sincere; i'm so thankful for him ( Read more... )

sometimes i spend too much time thinking about my past. today i read some old emails that took me there all over again. normally, it would leave me depressed and longing for what i once had. today, it brought me joy. that i loved someone that much. i forgot that i was capable of that. not that i don't love every friend that i have now, but knowing ( Read more... )

so, i wake up today at 9:30 to my neighbors, Tim and Tyler jumping on my bed yelling at me for not waking up for work. Mind you, I work at 9:00. Oh man... so, after hanging out, I finally get ready and show up at work at 10:00. I walk in all timid, fearing termination, and they thank me for coming to work and say that it's completely okay that I ( Read more... )