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Dec 27, 2009 20:50

I don't like opening presents in front of people. It's the anticipation they have for a reaction from me that makes me dislike it, I think. I don't want to have to fake happiness if I don't feel it, but I make myself feel so terrible for feeling selfish because of that.. Something like that. that's why Christmas is not that great of a holiday for ( Read more... )

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icechu December 28 2009, 17:00:47 UTC

Okay. It is gonna sound really terrible of me, because this is just an assumption, and if I'm wrong, then this entire comment was pointless and I'll be embarrassed and I'm going to go burrow deeper into my death hole. But I've been reading back on your older entries (I DO NOT CARE IF THIS MAKES ME SOUND LIKE A STALKER! REALLY!) and I just realized...you seem like you're keeping a lot inside. There's so much going around me these days, I'm starting to think that I've been the one with the least problems all this time and the people in front of me are the ones who are really unappreciated ( ... )

geometricity December 28 2009, 18:27:15 UTC

Thank you, so much, very much. I will keep that in mind. Every time I complain, though, I feel terrible, because my life great compared to many, and I feel like I don't deserve to complain about it.

On another note, I thought I would let you know that you are beyond your years by many. Most have not realized what you always knew.

icechu December 30 2009, 18:09:50 UTC

I know that feeling! I know it all too well. And I'm not too sure what to say exactly...because I'm still feeling that way as well, but... I think you deserve to say what you want to, too! Compared to how you were when we first met, you seem like you've grown up a lot. I mean, you were still really mature back then, but you seem a lot more reserved now. That's not a bad thing necessarily! But it's hard to see what you're keeping inside. And I'm sorry if you wanted to keep certain things inside, I just want to let you know that I'll be here to talk. :'D ( ... )

geometricity December 30 2009, 18:15:33 UTC

By "beyond your years by many", I mean that you are, mentally, much older than your physical age. You know and deal with feelings people your age haven't and cannot deal with yet, because their comprehension level does not allow it. Your level of comprehension is far higher than others around you, it seems (to me) and maybe that is why you are feeling a little out of place in your school. that's my idea, anyway.