another summer night, these are what i live for, but somehow i always find myself sitting here reminiscing about times of the past. Im not saying im not optimistic about the present and the future. I just find it intoxicating to look back at those moments always have. The sights, smells, fealings, memories. Gosh especialy the skies. Those summer ( Read more... )

i asked myself for a long time while i had a LJ addiction...why am i doing this? Now i know. Its amazing to look back at my mind sets, my thoughts, my fealings, what ive done, where ive gone, who ive been with ect ect E CET mother fucking RA. Its great to know how much ive grown. Its sad to see how bad i hurt. Its amazing to know how freaking ( Read more... )

Its been over a  year since i updated sooo i said what the hell ill do one for old times sake. To catch up my life...well im head over heals in love with a girl named Jennifer Campbell. Met her on myspace of all places. Wasn't sure what would become of anything but somehow we ended up together...fell in love...and now its been over a year that we' ( Read more... )

Time is going so fast. Its so hard to keep up with it. Or anything. My brain is such a mad jumble. I am fighting so hard all the time just to hold onto a single thought. My heart is a mess. Its not that im hurt its that i am so confused and so desperately reaching out for something. I have to stop thinking back to everything ive let go or failed in ( Read more... )

I have been following into the same pattern over and over again. Meet an amazing girl. Start really liking them. See and feal special things with and about them. Get my hopes up. And then they get crushed. This pattern has repeated itself about 5 times in the past 6 months. It sucks. I want to be in love again so bad. But everytime i come close to ( Read more... )

Feal the cold steal again ( Read more... )

Wow again back to square one. Failure is not very flattering. But to roughly quote someone very famous "i have not failed, i have just found 10,000 ways not to suceed." Ill find someone. Not doubt in that. I just get tired of coming so close just to fail at the last moment. Its so hard not to get down on myself for it. But hey gotta keep my chin up ( Read more... )

So i had alot change as always. Amanda is out of the picture. She's a sweet girl and all but things just arent right. Her priorities are messed up but now i know why. She's going through some hard stuff. Fate just said we werent meant for each other. Once again ive met someone new but im running into a very strange issue. Im scared of fealing ( Read more... )

Yah so im over my friend shelbys house right now. Kinda on the bored side. Strange night. No one is really all there. Jackies in the living room right now. Bill and shelby are in there room. I wanna watch tv but cant cuz my glasses are in there...GRRR. For some reason my face got all warm and my head feals like its gonna explode. Ouch. I guess i ( Read more... )

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