I wanna feal through you tonight. But i wont make you.
So i had alot change as always. Amanda is out of the picture. She's a sweet girl and all but things just arent right. Her priorities are messed up but now i know why. She's going through some hard stuff. Fate just said we werent meant for each other. Once again ive met someone new but im running into a very strange issue. Im scared of fealing anything for her. Because i fear so bad getting hurt again like i have before. It seams like anyone i get real fealings for is ripped away before im ever ready for it. I dont want it to happen now. So everytime i start to feal something i get scared. I really like this girl. But im so full of fear its stopping me from completely being myself. I guess i just need to trust her in everyway but one. But i dont trust people in general with my heart anymore. Its so fragile. And it keeps getting smashed. Ide love to be this girls superman. And be so strong. And be able to say do or fix anything in there life for the better. But until i get past this fear i dont know what i can do. I guess ill have to talk to her about it. At least it feals so right anytime ive held her. It just fits. It feals perfect. That fealing gives me hope.