Wow it has been 7 months since last entry...Something bad had happened recently...almost did something...I've also made an important decision...

I feel like I'm now at another stage in life (after making a life-changing decision)

But SShhhh...keep this quiet...because no one is aware of it, and I want it to stay that way...

To me, the scariest animal is human. As a woman, the scariest enemy is women. People can be fickle. You don't know what and how they think behind those smiles. I can't live without another human being, but I fear them. I'm a black sheep covered in white powder, pretending to be one of them white sheep. Being an outsider, I can watch them without ( Read more... )

"It was as if I were a black sheep, born to live in isolation amongst a pure white flock. Without enjoying the same things as my brethren, not sorrowing over the same things as they do, nor partaking of the same meals, the comforting feelings my companions experienced--such feelings as love, affection, and sympathy were completely foreign to me ( Read more... )

Indications are you are BACK-Brain Dominant: lower energy level, reserved, soft spoken, shy, do fewer things, seek more private, solitary activities with quiet to concentrate, internal, reticent, hold things in, reflective, deliberate.

Back-brainers (B) are compelled to recharge their batteries from within. Many Back-brain dominant ( Read more... )

My mom has always been telling my family that I like to argue. And, I have always disagreed with her. She joked I should study to be a lawyer because I like to argue so much. Again, I disagreed with her. I never thought of myself as someone who like to argue. I only want to express my opinion. and I mainly do it with my family, not with others. ( Read more... )

They say human are pretty good at adapting, but I wonder how adaptive I really am. Living mostly inside my head, talking with myself, only deal with people when necessary and expected, doing things expected from the different roles I play in life, avoid social gathering, avoid meeting new people if possible, avoid going out with "friends." I block ( Read more... )

I believe that lots of people don't want to really listen to what you have to say. They only want to hear what they want to hear. Because the truth can be unbearable and painful. Sometimes there are things I want to say and ask...... but I know that the aftermath....no one wants to deal with it. Even me....

I've just finished The Vampire Diaries TV series and WOW. It was fantastic. Now it made me want to read the original series. I was skeptical while watching the first episode, but then the next few episodes drew me in. It just got better and better. I'm glad I got to watch it. Can't wait for the next season. My favorite character is Damon Salvatore ( Read more... )

Today I have an epiphany. While reading Akuma to Love Song, I had a sudden thought: If I were a male, the type of person I would want as my soulmate would be like Kawai Maria. I can't say the same while being a female because I really don't think I could take it if my boyfriend would say stuff like her. But if I were a male, I would like to be with ( Read more... )

OMG I marathon through ~9 vol of 7 Seeds and cried so much through like half of them, especially during the Winter chapters. All I want to say is, I wish each of them could find happiness and peace at the end. I feel so much for all of them, even the bad ones, because they all have insecurities and fear.