Something doesn't feel right

I should feel like I'm on top of the world

Rather I feel as if I'm trapped in an empty dark hole

Am I living a lie?

This is what I always wanted I thought?

I shouldn't try to be someone I'm not

I want to be ME but I can't be Me

I don't know who ME is

She doesn't even exist

Turning Point in my life: I am officially dating Joe. Yes a guy. Very different and new to me...somewhat awkward. I had my first guy kiss on Friday. It was nice, I didn't mind it. He was so nervous about kissing me...it was really cute actually lol. I don't know what will become of this...I might fall or I might not. I might realize I'm gay ( Read more... )

So I got called a lesbian today at work from a customer. The things that I go through for liking girls sometimes. I have a cashier (Amanda) that I suspect is stealing from the store. Amanda has a friend (Heather) that is always coming in the store. Heather is 17 with a baby and she has no life so she comes into the store to talk to Amanda. I ( Read more... )

I just read a disturbing story in the paper that I really wish I didn't read. A murderer from New York was found in Orange walking in front of the DD on the Post Road. He abandoned the car that he stole from the guy he murdered right in front of Peck Place School. Peck Place is right down the street from the Post Road. Anyway, the reason why ( Read more... )

So I went on a date last night with Joe and it went well. We saw Flags of our Fathers (sadness), played Pool at a Pool Hall in Hamden, and ate at Fridays. I really enjoyed playing Pool and I did better than I thought :) woo hoo! So yeah I know that he is really into me and I do like him but I don't know if I am into him the way that he is into ( Read more... )

So today had a lot of excitement in it...too much excitement in one day for me. Normally my life is very dull and not a lot happens so when something does happen that is out of the ordinary it hits me hard because it's like "wow maybe my life isn't that bad after all." It was exciting but weird at the same time and very random! So yeah I worked ( Read more... )

I'm dreading this Abnormal paper that I really need to get going on. Haven't even started and it's due on Thurs. During the week I won't have much time to write it so that means my whole Sunday will most likely be spent on it and some of Monday. School seems to be going well grade wise but enthusiasm wise not so good. I don't care about my ( Read more... )

My weekend sucked because all I did was work. Then after work today I went to see Ame to give her a few things back and she gave me a few things back. We might try being friends but in honest truth I don't know if it will work. Knowing that she loves someone else is tough. I don't know if I'm feeling this way because I'm jealous or if I'm angry ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to understand why being a teacher isn't easy. The kids were hyper today and I had to help them write apple poems while Mrs. Grasso corrected spelling tests. Every minute a kid was either coming up to me or calling me to go to them. I think I must have heard "Ms. Onofrio" mentioned 50 times today. It's tough when you have three kids ( Read more... )

I feel like updating about what's going on in my life right now. There has been some ups and downs this past week. I lost a few friends but I gained some too. Ame and I aren't talking and we haven't spoke all week, so I had to let her go which is obviously hard for me. It's hard for me to let anyone go *sigh*. My friend Meredith left for the ( Read more... )