im going to miss italian when this quarter is over. spero che non dimentico tutti della lingua. forse scrivero' nella questa in italiano. forse e' una idea stupida. ma per adesso, io sono contento. its the first time i've learned something so completely that it's become habitual, and a part of me. if anything, italy holds the tightest to me in that ( Read more... )

i could live in europe for the rest of my life. im not homesick one bit. im sick of my roommates, some of them, but im not home sick. there are people at home who i kinda would appreciate seeing, especially late at night when im sleepy, or when im especially lonely. but lonliness here is just the same as at home. you call the same people, do the ( Read more... )

and i have a huge crush on him. he's just so lovable ( Read more... )

ON THE SEA ( Read more... )

italy is dirty. sex, shit, piss, all of the nasty bits and pieces that no one wants to pick up. its all over the bottoms of my shoes. its all over me.  it is me ( Read more... )

im wearing his socks :) i had a major freak out yesterday. it sucked. he was perfect. how come no matter how hard i push, he still is perfect? i really do test him. do you love me enough to stay, even if i do this? what about this? and this and this? its comforting, but at the same time, it scares me.

im thinking about what my favorite book is. ( Read more... )

im waiting.  sometimes im not patient enough. i'm trying to wait.

i am supposed to be working. but you know how that goes ( Read more... )

if anyone ever deleted my cookies i'd be permanently locked out of here. i even think i deleted the e-mail that i used to open this account...hmmm ( Read more... )

 i've had this journal since 2003.  goodness gracious. :)  i dont think i've ever been committed to anything for that long...hah im lying. perhaps one day soon.

im tired of making an effort. yes. that is all.