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i am supposed to be working. but you know how that goes.
last night i had a dream that it was next year and i was taking spanish. my italian professor was teaching it. and it was so hard. and i tried and tried and i couldnt get it. so i asked my italian (spanish) teacher if i could switch back to italian. and she yelled at me. and in my dream i cried. and then i dreamed that i went back to dana hills to run cross country again.
strange. elizabeth and jason and i decided that we're going to do italy, france and spain. fly into rome, see florence, venice, then the south of france, and if theres time, spain. im excited. its all coming together.
i got my subletter signed and on the lease. its all official and legit now. woo. i go to the italian consulate in la tomorrow for my visa. double woo.
hummmm...i cant wait to leave. not just to go somewhere, but to leave here as well. italy will be amazing, that is a certainty as far as i am concerned. leaving could be good or bad. regardless, im excited to do it.
i cant wait for chad to get back from detroit. he's cute and i want to smoke with him again. according to reported locker room talk he says ive got a nice butt. and i appreciate the attention. :)
everyone came down/up from their respective places of summer residence this weekend. frivolities ensued.
jason was the first to get there. then me. it was gaya and maral and jason and me sitting in the living room of their apartment. it hit me. in a big fat cliche. i was overwhelmed by how fast everyone was growing up. the new apartment, the big girls, living away from home, with jobs, going to school, paying bills, using condoms, drinking alcohol, being adults. and jason had a beard. and he was so old and so different, and not my jason. and i stood there and whimpered to them all "im about to cry. im seriously about to cry." and then i did.
im excited for the catharsis that i anticipate this trip to be. and im glad he's going to be there. he's my biggest accomplishment so far. maybe not quite true, but truthfully the one i value the most. lets say the most consistently. hah.
i can do this.
last night i had a dream that it was next year and i was taking spanish. my italian professor was teaching it. and it was so hard. and i tried and tried and i couldnt get it. so i asked my italian (spanish) teacher if i could switch back to italian. and she yelled at me. and in my dream i cried. and then i dreamed that i went back to dana hills to run cross country again.
strange. elizabeth and jason and i decided that we're going to do italy, france and spain. fly into rome, see florence, venice, then the south of france, and if theres time, spain. im excited. its all coming together.
i got my subletter signed and on the lease. its all official and legit now. woo. i go to the italian consulate in la tomorrow for my visa. double woo.
hummmm...i cant wait to leave. not just to go somewhere, but to leave here as well. italy will be amazing, that is a certainty as far as i am concerned. leaving could be good or bad. regardless, im excited to do it.
i cant wait for chad to get back from detroit. he's cute and i want to smoke with him again. according to reported locker room talk he says ive got a nice butt. and i appreciate the attention. :)
everyone came down/up from their respective places of summer residence this weekend. frivolities ensued.
jason was the first to get there. then me. it was gaya and maral and jason and me sitting in the living room of their apartment. it hit me. in a big fat cliche. i was overwhelmed by how fast everyone was growing up. the new apartment, the big girls, living away from home, with jobs, going to school, paying bills, using condoms, drinking alcohol, being adults. and jason had a beard. and he was so old and so different, and not my jason. and i stood there and whimpered to them all "im about to cry. im seriously about to cry." and then i did.
im excited for the catharsis that i anticipate this trip to be. and im glad he's going to be there. he's my biggest accomplishment so far. maybe not quite true, but truthfully the one i value the most. lets say the most consistently. hah.
i can do this.